MarsAtlas

lol, I didn't think that this would work. I even used the same email account and everything.

Was just reminiscing about this forum with a friend, wanted to see if groups were still a thing, wondering about some folks.

Some went dark years ago and haven't heard anything since. In the years since being banned some may have committed suicide, some may have died of COVID, some I know for sure died like, IIRC, their username was like Etherium or something along those lines, with a guinea pig avatar - fuck cancer! or was it leukemia? I'm not entirely sure - I have a some memory issues from neurological damage. Y'know, getting hate crimed like I mentioned here before once. Also, turns out there's schizoid issues as well.

It's hard not to dwell upon better days from the past when the future looks so goddamn bleak. The more you try to understand the world the more bleak it is and I try to understand a lot of things. A collapse is coming - I think we all feel it in our bones, and the end of the world as we know it is coming down with it.

I was raised to be a part of that, to be a mindless recruiter and trooper for an army of genocidal hate. I don't mean that figuratively in terms of nationalism or anything like that, I mean that in the "neo-nazis that want to take over the world" type of way. Nobody hates this ideology more than me, it corrupted an important part of me, a part of me that can never be fixed. I think that upbringing permanently skewed my vision of the future as well but I think it also prepared me better for the future that it is becoming increasingly clear from an objective standpoint that we're all going to live through.

The future will not be kind to any of us. But that doesn't mean the future is without hope. Despite everything I remain idealistic and optimistic. I've seen some of the worst that humanity has to offer firsthand but I still see the good. Be strong, withstand, and do not forget to love each other. I hope to see all of you in better times at a better place.