I grew up in the 80's and 90's, very much wanting to be an astronaut. I envisioned space exploration to be a huge part of life, even if I never was able to make the cut, I still saw it to be the future. I watched Challenger explode, not far from Cape Canaveral, felt shock and awe and sadness all at the same time. I went to Space Camp in 6th grade, got to fly the simulator in the mockup shuttle cockpit for a few moments. I ate space food bought from the gift shop, toured the space center many times in the years of my childhood, saw many more launches and felt very privileged to live in Florida.
As I got older and graduated high school, realizing I was probably not astronaut material hurt a lot but I never gave up on the space program. I still haven't, I still believe that NASA has some of the brightest folks working there. I even played a pickup game of Dungeons and Dragons at DragonCon in Atlanta one year from a few guys from NASA, one of the coolest experiences I've ever had.
But I also feel we've gotten so far away from the mindset we once had not 20 years ago I can't honestly say we'll be doing anything bigger than what I've already seen in my life so far. I used to think that one day, even if I was too old to do so, there would be civilians going into space on a regular basis. That us mundane folks would live in a world where it was possible to leave this planet, to go out there and see new things.
I believed in Star Trek, maybe not the warp drive, maybe not a first contact, but I believed in exploration. I don't know if I believe that any more... And it really hurts the kid in me who built rockets and launched them in middle school, the kid who lovingly crafted rocket ships with LEGOs. To think that what I feel is the future of the human race, not just America, but every human's future is seen by so many as a waste of time. To know that NASA is basically an afterthought...
I am hurt and angry that the promises I felt were made in my childhood have become the forgotten words uttered by an uncaring parent to shut the kid up who asks "When are we going to space?" Much like a kid would ask "when are we going to Disneyland?" only to hear "someday" repeated over and over.
I disagree with the notion that "we must solve our problems here on Earth", as if we'll ever get anywhere if all we do is try fix whats broken and never make strides toward the future.
We can't afford to be a solely introspective species, we must have the courage to look outside our own boxes else we'll never be free from our own short-sighted follies.