This post is primarily for me rather than anyone else, a mental line in the sand if you will, so feel free to skip to the TL
R at the end.
Shortly before I joined here, I had come to the conclusion the past 10-15 years of drugged up partying and slide into heroin addiction had maybe not been such a great plan after all. Wondering what the fuck else there was to do in life, I looked back to before I got into sex, drugs and rock & roll, and remembered the nerdy stuff I had done as a kid.
Over the next 5 years I managed to use gaming, nerd stuff and this site, to slowly cut myself off from a rather insalubrious habit and social circle, just keeping to myself, playing games, painting Warhams, watching YouTube, posting here.
But that mission was accomplished over a decade ago. I began to realise, a few years ago now, that what was once a necessary pair of crutches, was holding me back. I was just living my life through a screen, and it was really no life at all.
Deliberate action and natural decay has got me to a point where I'm just not interested anymore. Games, Warhams, just fiction in general. Everything has been going through the motions out of habit, so I feel it would now be good for me to put a stop to that habit and say goodbye, admittedly with a bit of dust in my eye.
TL;DR
Video games aren't shit now, you guys don't suck, I've changed. The Escapist helped me dig myself out of a pretty deep hole, but it's time for me to go.
R at the end.Shortly before I joined here, I had come to the conclusion the past 10-15 years of drugged up partying and slide into heroin addiction had maybe not been such a great plan after all. Wondering what the fuck else there was to do in life, I looked back to before I got into sex, drugs and rock & roll, and remembered the nerdy stuff I had done as a kid.
Over the next 5 years I managed to use gaming, nerd stuff and this site, to slowly cut myself off from a rather insalubrious habit and social circle, just keeping to myself, playing games, painting Warhams, watching YouTube, posting here.
But that mission was accomplished over a decade ago. I began to realise, a few years ago now, that what was once a necessary pair of crutches, was holding me back. I was just living my life through a screen, and it was really no life at all.
Deliberate action and natural decay has got me to a point where I'm just not interested anymore. Games, Warhams, just fiction in general. Everything has been going through the motions out of habit, so I feel it would now be good for me to put a stop to that habit and say goodbye, admittedly with a bit of dust in my eye.
TL;DR
Video games aren't shit now, you guys don't suck, I've changed. The Escapist helped me dig myself out of a pretty deep hole, but it's time for me to go.
