Get it off your chest.

[Cowabungaa]

Stress causes a distortion in someone's brain, does that also mean stress is a factor you can't control? >.>

Stress you might, but you can't simply control a chemical imbalance that distorts the way you perceive the world. That's clinical depression and it's a real illness, not just some choice or state of mind, it's a physical condition.

Dude, the one girl I feel like I might love lives on the other side of the world. She was over here (Australia) for a bit, and left just today. Saying goodbye was the hardest thing ever. Girls do horrible things to us.

That's the situation I fear too really, that even if she would like me I would have to leave her regardless. My brain tells me to give up on her no matter how I feel about her. And this isn't just some desperate, teenage crush. I know exactly how those feel, way past that point. This is different, very different. All we ever did was talk talk talk and talk some more. I never even dáred to think someone like her even existed, let alone that I would ever get so close to her through mere words and nothing else. She just has to say the words and I'd travel half the planet to be with her as soon as I could. But I know that won't happen, I know her by now. Each day I fear that she'll meet someone closer to her, someone who can give her what I cannot give her at the moment. But I do wánt to give her éverything she wants. I don't think she wants me to give it to her. I wish I could take her fears away.

I honestly, deeply believe that there's no one else in the world I can be so happy with as I could be with her. Cóuld be, but with each passing day it seems to get more and more impossible. In a way it's both a dream that came true and got crushed at the exact same time.

 

[CrazyDave DC]

I hate our shallow, emotionless, and utterly dispassionate relationship. It's been over five months and I've still only gone on one date with you! I'm tired of how you never want to talk to me, or when you do, it's just some sarcastic remark that makes me feel even worse. All I ever wanted was to get closer to you; to know you, but I suppose that was too much to ask. The best thing I can say about you is that you distracted me from Maria, the girl I truly love and care about. She actually thinks I'm interesting and expresses that notion by listening to my hopes and my dreams as opposed to laughing at them, calling them silly and boring. Despite your neglect, I managed to surge out of my depression spiral, becoming a whole new man with fresh optimism as pure and clean as new fallen snow. But at what cost? The reality I created for myself shielded me from my depression, enveloping me in sheer, ignorant bliss. I realize now how fake it all was, how wrong it felt at times, and in that you are blameless. I chose to go out with the first girl who was willing to admit that she liked me; I decided to ignore my true love for Maria with the false pretence of "moving on". Caitlin, I'm sorry.

Maria, even though you've been with Dylan for well over a year now, I still can't shake my love for you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about what might have been. If I had only asked you out sooner, if I had only swallowed my pride and took a risk, maybe things might have been different... maybe. But then, if I had gone out with you and all my dreams were made true, what then? Perhaps Dylan has saved me from some grave unforeseen error. Maybe if I had gone out with you, you would have dumped me and our beautiful friendship would never have seen the light of day. I can only hope I'm better off from not taking that risk so many months ago. One day, Maria, we'll find each other. I can't speak of when, where and how, but I just know, in my heart of hearts, that we're meant to be together.

 

[nicholaxxx]

I lack the self confidence to believe that my friends actually like me, though this is mostly because my asshole friend, Jory is an asshole.

another thing I lack the self confidence for is to ask a girl I like out.

Well Jory is a stupid name so you're already better than him at life.

Spoiler: rant that could ruin my social life

fuck, it's so stupid too. it could be me, him and a bunch of other friends, and he will either ignore me while making joking comments to my other friends, or make completely serious asshole comments about me. it pisses me off, and is the only thing I have to complain about as of now.

he likes to think he knows what he's talking about, too. and don't even think about calling him worse than you at something. fuck he's such a goddman asshole.

also, while it is true that I've never had a girlfriend, and you've had 3 in the past 2 years is twofold:
1. you've gone out with a whore, a desperate girl, and a whore
2. I don't believe in highschool relationships because they are bullshit excuses to fuck someone and make it feel like something is there.

another thing: no, you don't know how I feel, you can never even come close to knowing how I feel. you might be able to understand when you lose a brother along with your mom and dad. and yes, I understand that it was my uncle, my godmother, and my grandfather, but they completely filled those respective rolls. fuck you, yes I missed school a lot, but unless you understand how i feel, don't fucking criticize me

I hate him, and the only reason I still hang out with him is that i'm scared that if I tell him to fuck off, the rest of my friends will go with him. I really need to yell and hit something, but everyone is asleep and even if they weren't they'd tell me to stop without ever considering the reason as to why I'm so pissed off. fuck I hate everyone, they can all just leave me alone.


*aaaand breathe*

alright, I feel a bit better, it doesn't really change much other than a bit of a fresh perspective... he's a good friend, but a really bad person. He doesn't do drugs or anything like that, but he's a fucking asshole. he has no idea how lucky he is that I wouldn't hurt a fly or I'd have beat him and left him to die a loooonnnnng time ago.

maybe he acts more like a dick towards me is because he's known me and hung out with me the longest/most? it would make sense, you know a person well enough, you feel comfortable making more abrasive jokes? that's how I'm going to rationalize it at least, because I'm too fucking weak to admit that the other option might be true.

 

[Cobbs]

i appear to despise myself for some reason

 

[Samurai Goomba]

I am getting sick of your low self-esteem. I can't help it if you were surrounded by jerks growing up and I was lucky to only have a couple irrational nutballs ordering me around, and I can't help it that you don't seem to have the chutzpah to stand up to these folks. I'm starting to feel like an emotional crutch, and I'm not going to be that rebound guy who gets your life in order so you can date the REAL guy.

Stop putting yourself down, stop acting super self-conscious every time I compliment you, stop asking me why I find you attractive. If I didn't want to be with you I wouldn't be. Stop running from confrontation-face up to it. I'll be supportive but I won't support you. There's a difference.

I'll be the first to admit I've got problems, but I learned a long time ago life is challenging enough without me putting myself down. Building self-esteem is hard, but come on, make an effort and keep making it. If you feel low self-esteem kicking in, recognize and quash that feeling. Because it'll mess you up, big time.

 

[Angryman101]

I just had sex with a girl without a condom. I didn't ejaculate inside her, but I did about 10 minutes before the actual act. She's on birth control, and clean, but I am so fucking terrified of her being pregnant, I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I hate when I get completely lost in the heat of the moment like this; with my luck, things will go badly. God, I'm so scared, I hate abortion more than anything, but I'm not ready for a child. I'm such an idiot.

Keep your chin up and learn from your mistakes man. Only way to keep going.

*Pat on the back*

Thanks. This has happened before, but shit, here I go doing it again. This is the last time this will ever happen, I swear.

 

[grimsprice]

I...I held my dead dog in my arms, I saw it coming, and he saw it a Split Second before going.

I don't think I will ever forgive myself.

Man, i still remember when i saw that dog sneak up from behind my cat. No matter how fast i ran, the distance wouldn't shrink. I started to cry, mid run. As the sound she made got worse and worse. I still remember sitting with her in the back seat of my parents jeep as we took her to the vet with broken and mangled limbs. We had her put to sleep.

I cried for 2 days. And didn't speak for nearly a week.

Sorry to hear.

I do blame the drivers for one thing. They were at the end of the road when they finally stopped, and didn't even investigate when I ran into my house screaming. If that was me I would have investigated, I would have been shitting my pants.

I love dogs and cats more than people. People are dick, animals easily warm up to people and are great company where people just get annoying.

Me and my brother are going to get 2 more Doxens. He'll keep one at his house and one at mine. It'll be Syn and Jin. Keep Syn Jin's memory going right?

Thing is, I want to live a long time but I'm more eager to die, to see all of mine that have passed on.

Did you ever get a new cat?

She's laying next to me on my bed, i can hear her lil motor going as i pet her.

And you're right, animals are never cruel, cold, capricious, malevolent, judgmental, or depressingly credulous.

 

[headshotcatcher]

Stress causes a distortion in someone's brain, does that also mean stress is a factor you can't control? >.>

Stress you might, but you can't simply control a chemical imbalance that distorts the way you perceive the world. That's clinical depression and it's a real illness, not just some choice or state of mind, it's a physical condition.

And you believe all the people venting on here are clinically depressed? Clinical depression like you describe it is very rare, just like aspergers, and you know how many people on the internet like to self-diagnose themselves with aspergers...

Damn you life, and damn my inability to get a girlfriend. Why is there something wrong with me, why must every girl I live near either be in a relationship or be a complete and total ****. Why do they all have higher standards than they realistically should. I mean I'm no stud, but I'm not bad looking.

And fuck you life for making me depressed about shit like this.

I don't know where to start.. But I'll try!
You act like you think you are the only one with these problems, just one glance on this (or any other) forum or even just this topic will show you you are not..
But anyway, you seem to view getting a girlfriend like a big end goal, but also like something that shouldn't be hard, do you see the irony in that?

Thinking about that 'why is everyone near me in a relationship a ****' is just the fruit of you being depressed(ish), the last line just confirms this and makes it worse as well. Depression is a choice, a bad one as well. You choose to be unhappy, it's up to you to revoke that choice and get a positive outlook on life!

Perhaps, though I was just venting about stuff that made me depressed, not stuff that is currently making me depressed. I'm pretty mellow at the moment, the only thing really bothering me is the heat. But more to the point, you are right, somewhat. Though what I said was not entirely untrue, I live in a fairly, um... elitist town. We have a seperation between high class and middle class (It's sort of like the harvard runoffs, living in New England, this isn't unexpected.) So, I am surrounded by some entitled bitchy shallow stereotypes. That's not an exageration either, it's like Jersey Shore sometimes... or it was, I'm out of grade school now. But I guess I still hold some bitterness about the whole thing.

Well if it's really so stereotypical around there I can't imagine you are the only one from your stereotype
But yeah, you shouldn't put getting a relationship as a goal to yourself. I had that, and the only time I got a girlfriend was at the one party where I DIDN'T make an effort
You can't force something like that, so it's not really something reasonable for a goal.

I don't mean to insult you, I'm actually trying to help

 

[Nautical Honors Society]

I am pissed about how bored I am and that I don't have a job.

 

[blarg478]

Sean, you are a religious bigot and a fraud. Your lack of respect for me and my fiance is the central reason why you are not invited to our wedding. I do not like you and you are one of the most arrogant pieces of shit I have ever known, I am counting the days until you move down to Texas so you will be out of my life permanently. You will never hold my future children because your personality makes me fear that you have the potential for child abuse. I secretly hope that you get yourself in trouble down in Texas and never come back to Canada again.

 

[Samurai Goomba]

I'm coming to resent someone lately who, for all of their positive traits, has increasingly been bothering me over the discrepancy between what this person says and what they do. I may be an evasive and shady person, but I really don't like it when people just can't tell me they have a problem directly and keep up a passive-aggressive game. Maybe i'm just reading into things too much, but it looks like i'm going to have to throw this person out a proverbial window and no longer waste my time with them.

I know what you mean. I'm not exactly dealing with the same thing, but it bothers me when I ask somebody close to me (like a good friend or girlfriend) how he or she is doing and he/she says "okay" or "fine" without taking a little more time to actually tell me.

IF I HAVE TO ASK 3 TIMES YOU'RE NOT EXACTLY BEING HONEST AND FORTHCOMING ARE YOU NOW?

*Sigh*

Had to get that off my chest after dealing with those kinds of situations most of yesterday. It's not that I dislike this person-far from it, but when I can't get a straight answer and I can SEE this person is upset... TALK TO ME IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM! DON'T JUST SIT THERE AND MOPE!

 

[Daniel Lubszczyk]

I am pissed about how bored I am and that I don't have a job.

Umm.. What's holding you back of getting a job?

 

[TheSuperiorXemnas]

So...I just have to shout? This is going to be kindof long.... -Clears Throat-

FUCK YOU MOM AND DAD! I'M GAY, SO GET THE FUCK OVER IT. JUST BECAUSE YOU TWO DIDN'T SEEM TO WORK OUT DOES NOT MEAN I HAVE TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES AS WELL. LET ME GET A BOYFRIEND, SO I DON'T END UP AS LONELY AS YOU STUPID FLONOCINOUCINIHILIPILICICATED FRAGMENTS OF DEFENASTRATABLE SMEGMA!
FUCK HAVING A CERFUW WHEN I AM 17, AND STILL ON SUMMER VACATION.
FUCK MY CHEAP ASS DAD ON TRYING TO SAVE MONEY WHEN BUYING COMPUTERS (LIKE THIS SLOW PIECE OF CRAP) AND NEARLY BROKEN GAME STATIONS.
FUCK YOU FAMILY FOR HAVING TO USE MY OWN MONEY TO HELP SUPPORT YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU USE SOME OF IT ON AN APARTMENT AND OTHER UTILITIES BILLS JUST SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO COMMUNICATE, WHICH YOU STILL DO!
FUCK YOU BROTHER ON TRADING IN MY NINTENDO WII SO YOU COULD HAVE MONEY TO GO OUT ON A DATE AFTER BEING BROKEN UP ABOUT YOUR Ex FOR 4 DAYS!!!
FUCK YOU SISTER, FOR HAVING TO WHINE ABOUT HOW YOU WANT A PHONE WHEN YOU ARE ONLY 10 YEARS OLD, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO CALL?!?!?
FUCK YOU HIGH SOCIETY WHO WILL NOT ALLOW ME TO GET ANY TYPE OF JOB AT THIS AGE OR EXPERIECE!
FUCK THIS BOOK THAT LIED TO ME ABOUT HOW TO BECOME A WEREWOLF!!!!
AND FUCK YOU GENETICS FOR NOT GIVING ME A BETTER SET OF "EQUIPMENT"!!!!
FUCK FUCK SHIT SHIT PINGAS-SUCKING ************ AND *****!!!

.......I do feel alot better now.

 

[chinangel]

i'm actually severely annoyed at myself for being so forgiving of others. People get away with murder with me.

unless, contrarily, it's something small. I can hold grudges over small silly, stupid things like taking my pop when it's the last can or something. how weird is that? :S

 

[Guffe]

If i want it off my chest I just shave my chest hair...

 

[Cowabungaa]

And you believe all the people venting on here are clinically depressed? Clinical depression like you describe it is very rare, just like aspergers, and you know how many people on the internet like to self-diagnose themselves with aspergers...

Who says it's rare? Where did you get that info from?

Even still, you're oversimplifying things big time. A real depression is not just having a foul mood one day, it's much more than that. It is not simply a choice. Talk to any doctor, talk to any psychotherapist, heck talk to some patients. You are simply wrong, you can't just "choose" to leave a real depression.

 

[DeAvatar]

really? truly? Life, you're just going to take this great guy away from my Mom, leave my sisters without a positive male role model, and leave everyone who knew him in shock? FUCK off.
Give an intelligent independent grandparent brain cancer, leaving him shuffling in his walker and six months to live, barely able to remember the people around him? GRRRRRRRR
Erin, you're absolutely adorable, but I see the mooneyes you've been giving Josh and i'm not that stupid.
Melissa baby, we had good times and bad times, but we have to move on with our lives. Quit texting me every hour with what you're doing.

 

[AnOriginalConcept]

No matter who I'm with, I always feel like I am not liked but barely tolerated. I am constantly surprised that I still have friends.

 

[Nautical Honors Society]

I am pissed about how bored I am and that I don't have a job.

Umm.. What's holding you back of getting a job?

The current economy in America is preventing young college bound people such as myself from getting jobs, since those who were once recently retired or fired are taking over jobs that used to be given to people of my age. No one wants to hire a kid that is just gunna leave after only 2.5 months of work when people need money as bad as they do now. It's not like I haven't applied.

 

[headshotcatcher]

And you believe all the people venting on here are clinically depressed? Clinical depression like you describe it is very rare, just like aspergers, and you know how many people on the internet like to self-diagnose themselves with aspergers...

Who says it's rare? Where did you get that info from?

Even still, you're oversimplifying things big time. A real depression is not just having a foul mood one day, it's much more than that. It is not simply a choice. Talk to any doctor, talk to any psychotherapist, heck talk to some patients. You are simply wrong, you can't just "choose" to leave a real depression.

I said that I don't believe that all people who claim to be depressed on this forum have clinical depression. You can get out of the 'non-clinical' depression by choice, but the choice involves admitting that it's not a good choice, I have gotten 2 people out of it already so I do speak from experience (even if so little)