dj Facchiano said:
After seeing the doctor they assured me that it was just because I had a head-cold and that it should cease within the next month and could take up to six months to truly disappear. This is probably the scariest thing that's ever happened to me, at least in how I personally reacted to it. Have any of you folks had any similar experiences, Anything that truly scared the shit out of you like this. ITS STORY TIME
So, recently, my body decided that merely having Stage 3 hemorrhoids wasn't enough, and further decided that I needed to shit blood and have extreme pain to accompany it. After visiting the hospital and setting up an appointment, my doctor and I decided that surgery would be the best fix.
Now, the surgery recovery is reportedly one of the most painful things in existence, which I can personally attest to (easily the worst pain I have ever felt, period), and because of this, I was given a large number of drugs to help me along, including Valium. On the positive end, one of the side effects of Valium is the inability to create long-term memories, meaning that I have absolutely no recollection of most of the recovery period.
On the negative end, one of the possible side effects of Valium is a worsened memory and lowered mental faculties, a side effect that can, possibly, be permanent, but can take at least six months to start returning to normal. Since my intellect is my absolute best quality, and the quality that I pride myself on the most, this was a massive blow to my self-esteem, something that I'm very worried about. I'm still not fully accepting of this possibility, to be honest.
I can actually *feel* the difference between how my mind worked before my surgery and after. It's as if my mind is permanently clouded, like I just don't have the mental strength to remember stuff like I used to.
In that sense, I feel ya, OP. It sucks not knowing if something is going to be permanent or not.
Edit: OH, right, tinnitus. I've been to a pretty fair number of live concerts, almost always pushing my way to the front row, so I've gotten used to the constant ringing in my ears whenever it's too quiet. It really isn't that bad xD