I wouldn't say I'm afraid of love so much as disillusioned about the whole concept. Every woman I have been with has been a liar or a cheater. I guess I have come to really distrust women in a romantic sense, and as such, I actively avoid relationships.GamingGoddessV said:Thanks for your input everyone I really appreciate it! I just feel as though people don't love freely, everyone is wrapped in society's example of what love is instead of their personal definition of love which I was sharing with my ex boyfriend. I was willing to follow him off a cliff or wander the world for him if he asked. But he decided he didn't want that for some reason which I don't think was his own. How I feel is that how can you not feel the love of a woman who is so devoted to you. Examine this a woman looking into your eyes not caring about anything else but the world you two will build together willing to cross whatever bridge with you good or bad. I just can't understand how my ex just dropped me like that like we don't have 4 years of history together. He isn't the man I thought he was for these past 4 years. The man he was would have never hurt me like this or denied our love.
Additional info- He is 22 and I am 20. We both live in the same city. He is going to college and so am I. His major is medicine and mine is video game design.
"I'm you favorite memory. Remember me. Never again have you felt this way."
They also have all tried to talk me out of my life goal of commissioning in the Marines. I don't care how much anyone claims to love me. The Corps will always be the most important thing in my life. Besides, women always cheat on Marines when they're deployed. I'm just saving myself the trouble.