My wife moved out a couple weeks ago. Her choice. I'm fucking miserable.
I realized I haven't been single for about twelve years, and the idea of it is... not cool, I guess. I can't think of a more elaborate way to say it.
I've proven myself as a very base and shameful hypocrite. I have always espoused the duty of any human being to be able to stand on their own, and be able to be happy within themselves and find love as a supplement to that happiness... simply a great thing to be enjoyed along with someone (or someones, whatever your deal may be), but still here I am, alone, lonely, and more bitter and angry than I have ever been in my life...
And what do I do with that anger? I take it to the Internet. I'm sure some of you are perfectly nice people, but I find myself stuck in limbo without the only person I have trusted to help shoulder my emotional burdens for the last several years, and you guys aren't it. No one on the Internet is.
I would not say I am happy being single, and for the first time in my life I am regretful of the choices I have made, but I seem to lack the clarity to make better ones in the future.
I realized I haven't been single for about twelve years, and the idea of it is... not cool, I guess. I can't think of a more elaborate way to say it.
I've proven myself as a very base and shameful hypocrite. I have always espoused the duty of any human being to be able to stand on their own, and be able to be happy within themselves and find love as a supplement to that happiness... simply a great thing to be enjoyed along with someone (or someones, whatever your deal may be), but still here I am, alone, lonely, and more bitter and angry than I have ever been in my life...
And what do I do with that anger? I take it to the Internet. I'm sure some of you are perfectly nice people, but I find myself stuck in limbo without the only person I have trusted to help shoulder my emotional burdens for the last several years, and you guys aren't it. No one on the Internet is.
I would not say I am happy being single, and for the first time in my life I am regretful of the choices I have made, but I seem to lack the clarity to make better ones in the future.