Panzer_God said:
So, there's this girl at school that I've been casually dating for a while now, and it started getting serious about a week ago. Yesterday I saw a banner ad on a website that linked to several pornographic videos. What caught my attention was an eerie feeling that I recognized one of the girls, so I clicked on the link. I'm 98% sure it's her, but I don't know if I want to bring it up or not.
I don't have a problem with it, if she is, but I'm afraid of what impact it would have on us as a couple this early in the relationship, and even more afraid of what would happen if I ask and it wasn't her. What would you do in this situation?
Few things to consider:
1. You're dating, not married or engaged. She's still allowed to have secrets.
2. The world has a lot of people in it, and some look the same. 98% isn't 100%. Might not be her.
3. Maybe it is her. That means she WAS in porn, not IS, necessarily. Could be she's trying to put it behind her (no doggystyle jokes intended).
4. Decide what it is
you are upset about: the idea of her being in porn, the idea of her not
telling you, or the possibility that you'll bring it up and find it's
not her.
5. Consider what about this could upset
her: Maybe it's something she wants to forget, maybe she just doesn't want to discuss it, maybe it's not her and she suddenly has to deal with all of this for no reason.
6. Weigh your choice carefully. What do you stand to
gain by bringing this up? What do you stand to
lose? How about what
she stands to gain/lose?
My conclusion: Without knowing either of you, or whether or not it's her in some video, I don't think it's worth it at this point in your relationship. The only thing you stand to gain is knowledge you really can't do anything
good with, and will cost her a terrible price emotionally if anything should go wrong.
You haven't mentioned anything bad or weird in the relationship, so obviously it isn't a problem. What's bugging you is just an unanswered question. And your subconscious is trying to
make that question super-important, because it wants an answer -- any answer. When that happens, sometimes we'll sacrifice something good just to get that answer... but more often, we throw
someone else in traffic as a result.
For now, don't ask. You're not sure it's her, and nothing good can come of pursuing this for now. Don't seek out an answer. Let it go. Enjoy your time with each other. If it goes somewhere (like marriage, someday), then
maybe you'll have a right to know. If it doesn't, then at least you didn't ruin what you had by digging for an answer you didn't need.