I guess, yeah, kinda. I would be lying if I said I didn?t. I?m apprehensive about how I will die (I?d rather it be on my own terms, rather than being beaten to death or something), what it?ll feel like, and what will happen afterwards (I think I?d rather reincarnation isn?t real, since I?d hate to come back as some poverty-stricken kid in Africa or something, but nothingness strangely isn?t a comforting thought for someone who likes at least some stuff in life). I try not to think about it that much. But I still hate not knowing.
At the moment, I?m only a little bit worried about when my dad will die, since he?s at least 58 now (seriously, he doesn?t even know when exactly he was born; he says it?s 1955, but he doesn?t even have a birth certificate, and he?s apparently been having some memory issues), even though chances are I?ll never see him again because he?s in an entirely different continent than me and we rarely speak because of?reasons.
But I?m anxious about a lot of stuff in the future that I won?t be able to see ahead of time, like ?will I go to uni??, ?what will it be like??, ?will I get a girlfriend??, ?what will that be like??, ?am I going to fuck up and get her pregnant and she wants to keep it and my bank account?s going to be drained until the brat?s 18??, etc.
At the moment, I?m only a little bit worried about when my dad will die, since he?s at least 58 now (seriously, he doesn?t even know when exactly he was born; he says it?s 1955, but he doesn?t even have a birth certificate, and he?s apparently been having some memory issues), even though chances are I?ll never see him again because he?s in an entirely different continent than me and we rarely speak because of?reasons.
But I?m anxious about a lot of stuff in the future that I won?t be able to see ahead of time, like ?will I go to uni??, ?what will it be like??, ?will I get a girlfriend??, ?what will that be like??, ?am I going to fuck up and get her pregnant and she wants to keep it and my bank account?s going to be drained until the brat?s 18??, etc.
