Hey Escapist community, I've got a problem that I need some help with.
Lately I've been depressed with aspects of my situation in life, and have been getting extremely stressed out by school work. It's to the point where it's really effecting my ability to perform sexually with my girlfriend.
I've tried explaining performance anxiety and the effect of stress on sexual performance, but she won't listen. She thinks that since I can get off to porn that I should be able to perform during sex. She thinks the problem is with her and me not being attracted to her anymore. She then says that even if it is stress that's causing my problem, that I should be able to forget all of that and be able to perform anyway when I'm with her.
It's just making me feel like even more shit. I can't perform because of stress and depression, and not being able to perform causes a strain on our relationship, and that causes more stress on me. It's like an endless cycle of anxiety.
She just told me that she wants to stop being physical with me because it's pointless and just making her depressed. I know she's not trying to be so cold, but it's like she doesn't even want to try to understand where I'm coming from.
I love her, but I don't know what to do. Sigh.
EDIT: Wow, I can't believe how many replies I've gotten for this and how supportive you've all been. You don't really hear many guys coming out so openly about problems with sex, and seeing as this site is part of the notoriously juvenile gaming community, I'm doubly impressed :3.
I've talked it through with my girlfriend. Like a lot of you said, the reason that she was reacting the way she did wasn't because she was being cold and heartless, but because her insecurities caused her to feel hurt and worthless.
We both have issues, but that's just human and we need to grow and learn together. I for one need to show her more intimacy and appreciation in all facets of our relationship so I can make her feel as special as I think she is.
I know things aren't completely resolved, but thanks to you all I have a handy little compendium of advice and knowledge should I ever need help .
So again I say to you, fellow Escapist members, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
EDIT 2:
And yeah, no more porn ;D.
Lately I've been depressed with aspects of my situation in life, and have been getting extremely stressed out by school work. It's to the point where it's really effecting my ability to perform sexually with my girlfriend.
I've tried explaining performance anxiety and the effect of stress on sexual performance, but she won't listen. She thinks that since I can get off to porn that I should be able to perform during sex. She thinks the problem is with her and me not being attracted to her anymore. She then says that even if it is stress that's causing my problem, that I should be able to forget all of that and be able to perform anyway when I'm with her.
It's just making me feel like even more shit. I can't perform because of stress and depression, and not being able to perform causes a strain on our relationship, and that causes more stress on me. It's like an endless cycle of anxiety.
She just told me that she wants to stop being physical with me because it's pointless and just making her depressed. I know she's not trying to be so cold, but it's like she doesn't even want to try to understand where I'm coming from.
I love her, but I don't know what to do. Sigh.
EDIT: Wow, I can't believe how many replies I've gotten for this and how supportive you've all been. You don't really hear many guys coming out so openly about problems with sex, and seeing as this site is part of the notoriously juvenile gaming community, I'm doubly impressed :3.
I've talked it through with my girlfriend. Like a lot of you said, the reason that she was reacting the way she did wasn't because she was being cold and heartless, but because her insecurities caused her to feel hurt and worthless.
We both have issues, but that's just human and we need to grow and learn together. I for one need to show her more intimacy and appreciation in all facets of our relationship so I can make her feel as special as I think she is.
I know things aren't completely resolved, but thanks to you all I have a handy little compendium of advice and knowledge should I ever need help .
So again I say to you, fellow Escapist members, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
EDIT 2:
And yeah, no more porn ;D.