sorry to get your hopes up ^_' it was a joke and i guess if i did one my boyfriend wouldn't be so happy ^_^.InnerRebellion said:
What changed your life?
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I have went through 2 major life changes.
I was a big wimp in primary school, so i was beat up A LOT! But i was always told i was better than them. so i subconsciously developed the idea that i am better than everyone who tries to say anything against me or threatens me etc.
In high school, i decided i wanted something different. I built a cold shell around me heart, making me impervios to any insults etc. the cold shell also locked away the gradually building anger and hatered inside me. I built myself a reputation that i wasn't to be messed with, coz for some reason i really filled out when i hit puberty, in fact i have stretch marks on my arms coz my muscles suddenly grew lol.
anyway, my heartless shell was reinforced by me and my friends always insulting and being mean to each other, all in good humour, and thats all i knew. Then in 3rd year i met this girl in my computing class, who was friendly to me and not constantly insulting. So i wasn't used to that at all, so my cold shell shattered. Suddenly the suppressed emotion of 5 years of primary and 2 years of high school hit me all at once... So because of that nice act by one innocent girl who i subsequently got very protective etc i have become a maelstrom of hate and anger, i feed on conflict, in a way im almost like Darth Nihlus from KotOR 2. So now its impossible for me to rebuilt my shell and lock all emotion out, and i fear that my hate will eventually consume me. I consider myself 'too human', for i seem to exemplify humanities emotion tenfold. Most ppl just assume i over exagerate, but i unfortunately don't...
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I was a big wimp in primary school, so i was beat up A LOT! But i was always told i was better than them. so i subconsciously developed the idea that i am better than everyone who tries to say anything against me or threatens me etc.
In high school, i decided i wanted something different. I built a cold shell around me heart, making me impervios to any insults etc. the cold shell also locked away the gradually building anger and hatered inside me. I built myself a reputation that i wasn't to be messed with, coz for some reason i really filled out when i hit puberty, in fact i have stretch marks on my arms coz my muscles suddenly grew lol.
anyway, my heartless shell was reinforced by me and my friends always insulting and being mean to each other, all in good humour, and thats all i knew. Then in 3rd year i met this girl in my computing class, who was friendly to me and not constantly insulting. So i wasn't used to that at all, so my cold shell shattered. Suddenly the suppressed emotion of 5 years of primary and 2 years of high school hit me all at once... So because of that nice act by one innocent girl who i subsequently got very protective etc i have become a maelstrom of hate and anger, i feed on conflict, in a way im almost like Darth Nihlus from KotOR 2. So now its impossible for me to rebuilt my shell and lock all emotion out, and i fear that my hate will eventually consume me. I consider myself 'too human', for i seem to exemplify humanities emotion tenfold. Most ppl just assume i over exagerate, but i unfortunately don't...
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yeah, im the same. my friends ask me why i never fight the ppl i hate, but thats coz regardless of how much i kick ass, they will come back with more than i can take.InnerRebellion said:
Something that happened to me when I was 5 really screwed me up, and it's going to be imprinted on my brain for the rest of my life. It's changed my life in so many ways, most of them being for the worse, I don't think I'll ever forget it. It's too personal to actually explain, but it's really affected me in a bad way.
Also, being a rampantly horny teenager made me throw myself into something that changed my perspective on sex and relationships. I'm still a virgin, but I came so close to having an opportunity to lose it that it made me take a step back and look at life differently. It wouldn't have meant anything if I'd done it then, it would have been pointless sex, and though I regret getting myself into that situation in the first place, I'm glad that it happened, because otherwise I'd be like the rest of the arse-holes I know who just think of girls as something to stick their dongs in.
Edit: Also, falling for my best female friend over and over again built me up and made me stronger. I was only ever disappointed, and she greatly improved my ability to get over people I had crushes on or whatever. She still feels guilty for putting me through all that hurt, but I don't resent her for it at all, I actually thank her, because if I hadn't had her to constantly beat me down, I'd still be a soft-ass ***** wanting to die every time a potential relationship didn't work out the way I wanted it to.
Also, being a rampantly horny teenager made me throw myself into something that changed my perspective on sex and relationships. I'm still a virgin, but I came so close to having an opportunity to lose it that it made me take a step back and look at life differently. It wouldn't have meant anything if I'd done it then, it would have been pointless sex, and though I regret getting myself into that situation in the first place, I'm glad that it happened, because otherwise I'd be like the rest of the arse-holes I know who just think of girls as something to stick their dongs in.
Edit: Also, falling for my best female friend over and over again built me up and made me stronger. I was only ever disappointed, and she greatly improved my ability to get over people I had crushes on or whatever. She still feels guilty for putting me through all that hurt, but I don't resent her for it at all, I actually thank her, because if I hadn't had her to constantly beat me down, I'd still be a soft-ass ***** wanting to die every time a potential relationship didn't work out the way I wanted it to.
When I first attemded a forum meetup of the greatest forum on the net and met all the wonderful people there, over 5 years ago. Now so many of them are my friends.
Also, meeting my soulmate through the same forum. She changed my life a lot, though for various long and complicated reasons never became my girlfriend. And I couldn't care less.
And of course, somewhat related to the above, leaving the country.
Also, meeting my soulmate through the same forum. She changed my life a lot, though for various long and complicated reasons never became my girlfriend. And I couldn't care less.
And of course, somewhat related to the above, leaving the country.
I was forced to face up to my own mortality. For the second time. It... affects you, more than a little bit.
A minor skiing fall led to me falling off a large cliff. I landed in the only patch of snow in a several yard radius. 1 foot to the left or right, and I'd have landed on a rocky plateau, and probably not have been quite so easily capable of moving and/or breathing today.
It pops up in dreams occasionally, and I feel a little uncomfortable around anything involving risk nowadays. On the other hand, I'm also a lot more pro-active when it comes to seeing people or going places, because I'm now aware of how easily accidents can happen.
A minor skiing fall led to me falling off a large cliff. I landed in the only patch of snow in a several yard radius. 1 foot to the left or right, and I'd have landed on a rocky plateau, and probably not have been quite so easily capable of moving and/or breathing today.
It pops up in dreams occasionally, and I feel a little uncomfortable around anything involving risk nowadays. On the other hand, I'm also a lot more pro-active when it comes to seeing people or going places, because I'm now aware of how easily accidents can happen.
I was recently dumped by the girl I loved as well. She stopped me from cutting myself and wallowing in self-hate. She dumped me for her ex-boyfriend, who she now claims she's loved all along....reading that along with my story, I say my life sucks, but I feel for everyone here more than I do for myself.THEAFRONINJA said:
I'm gonna go ahead and be wierd, and say "Love Hina" (yeah, the anime).
It turned me in a complete oppisite direction of where i was headed. I can't explain it, but it made me interested in cooking, motivated me to work out, inspired me to study hard, etc...
I'm a completely new person after i watched it to end, and I can't explain why.
It turned me in a complete oppisite direction of where i was headed. I can't explain it, but it made me interested in cooking, motivated me to work out, inspired me to study hard, etc...
I'm a completely new person after i watched it to end, and I can't explain why.
The one thing that completely refuckulated the way I look at life, the universe, and everything was when I realized that we have zero control of our own choices. They are made before we make them. I refuse to give away the reasoning behind my realization because I do not wish to ignite this logic bomb on anyone.
- Jeff Foxworthy
You might be a redneck...Ultratwinkie said:
- Jeff Foxworthy
Falling in love.
Great , you made me sound like a gay guy a homosexual when I am clearly not one but i have no problem with gay people!
CURSE YOU!
Oh , and I galloped on a horse for about 5 seconds.
And guess what? I passed 120 meters in that time.
Great , you made me sound like a gay guy a homosexual when I am clearly not one but i have no problem with gay people!
CURSE YOU!
Oh , and I galloped on a horse for about 5 seconds.
And guess what? I passed 120 meters in that time.
A band, actually.
Bomb The Music Industry.
Their songs, and the message they send, make me look at life in a different way.
Bomb The Music Industry.
Their songs, and the message they send, make me look at life in a different way.
I achieved enlightenment.
Okay, well, maybe not total enlightenment, but that was the most life changing event for me. Ever since I started following the path to enlightenment, my life has been rather pleasant.
Okay, well, maybe not total enlightenment, but that was the most life changing event for me. Ever since I started following the path to enlightenment, my life has been rather pleasant.
There have been a couple events in my life that have significantly changed mine.
The first one was finally leaving my mother's house, to live full time with my father last September. I did this after putting up with abuse for years.
The second one would realizing some things about my personality. This occurred over the last year.
The first one was finally leaving my mother's house, to live full time with my father last September. I did this after putting up with abuse for years.
The second one would realizing some things about my personality. This occurred over the last year.
Getting bullied for the first 3 years of high school.
By the people I had called my 'friends' in primary school.
How fantastic that was.
Pretty much made me hate everyone I met since then until they prove to me that they aren't assholes.
I have that to blame for the low esteem I hold humanity in now.
By the people I had called my 'friends' in primary school.
How fantastic that was.
Pretty much made me hate everyone I met since then until they prove to me that they aren't assholes.
I have that to blame for the low esteem I hold humanity in now.
