I'm 19 (20 in under two weeks).
I have no idea what to do with my life. I dropped out of university last year for a number of reasons (settled for a course that I didn't really enjoy, hated the city, got horribly depressed) and now I just don't know what to do. My parents are talking about retiring soon and I'm worried that I'm going to end up fucking up all their plans because I couldn't get my arse in gear. I've got two older brothers- one got As and Bs at A-level, went to a top university and his life is apparently fucking perfect (although he's a boring ************). The other is due to graduate this year in forestry (which he loves), he was always the kid that seemed least academic and most of a fuckup, but he lucks his way through. I guess I just feel like a total fucking failure in comparison, even though when I was in school everyone seemed to think I was a fucking genius even though my results were distinctly average.
I feel like absolute shit all the time which is killing my motivation to do anything but I can't broach the subject with anyone. No one seems to realise I might be a mopey prick all the time because I'm miserable, so I'm branded as lazy instead (to be fair, that's probably true as well). Honestly though, it's hard to go out looking for an apprenticeship when you struggle to get out of bed.
I have no idea what to do with my life. I dropped out of university last year for a number of reasons (settled for a course that I didn't really enjoy, hated the city, got horribly depressed) and now I just don't know what to do. My parents are talking about retiring soon and I'm worried that I'm going to end up fucking up all their plans because I couldn't get my arse in gear. I've got two older brothers- one got As and Bs at A-level, went to a top university and his life is apparently fucking perfect (although he's a boring ************). The other is due to graduate this year in forestry (which he loves), he was always the kid that seemed least academic and most of a fuckup, but he lucks his way through. I guess I just feel like a total fucking failure in comparison, even though when I was in school everyone seemed to think I was a fucking genius even though my results were distinctly average.
I feel like absolute shit all the time which is killing my motivation to do anything but I can't broach the subject with anyone. No one seems to realise I might be a mopey prick all the time because I'm miserable, so I'm branded as lazy instead (to be fair, that's probably true as well). Honestly though, it's hard to go out looking for an apprenticeship when you struggle to get out of bed.