1. Envy: Not applicable. I pity people. i don't envy them.
2. Wrath: Not applicable. All are innocent. this is something i believe whole-heartedly.
3. Lust: Not applicable. I've experienced the misery attached to physical relationships, and i have no interest going back down that road.
4. Sloth: If any of these are going to apply to me, it'll probably be this one. though it's not for lack of a will to serve, just lack of orders. it's not that i'm not willing to serve, it's that i don't know how. it's really a tough spot that concerns me greatly. i do have secular masters, and i serve them as much as they allow. they don't ask for much though, so i worry it's not enough.
5. Gluttony: Not applicable. I only eat to sustain my functions, and i try to minimize how this is defined.
6. Greed: Not applicable. aside from the occasional necessity, i spent any money i made by giving it away until recently. my current master refuses to take it from me though, so it's just piling up these days. problem is, i just don't need/want anything. i have absolutely no interest in material possessions.
7. Pride: it's possible this may apply to me. i am quite satisfied with the philosophies by which i live my life. however, far be it that i would see myself as maintaining a standard above anyone else. i understand that not a single conscious entity chose to be born, and that not a single one of us since our birth till our death has ever been made aware of an absolute purpose for our being. in these cases, without choice, and without direction, not one of us can be held responsible for the results of our conduct here. we're all just wandering blind and when our actions result in in the offense of another conscious entity, judgement passes from one entity to the next, and that's as far as it goes, even if that judgement comes from a group or organization of like minded individuals or even your local governing body, it's still only coming from those individuals and holds no absolute weight. i'm not above this system. i'm just as blind and innocent as anyone else. i'm just doing the best i can with what i have, like everyone else.
i guess the problem here is that while i don't put anyone below me, i don't put anyone above me either. i don't believe in secular authority. there are, of course, undeniable physical consequences to offending secular authority figures, but that's just something we have to deal with here. they still hold no weight as far as defining absolute right and wrong.
