You mean to say that I'm describing exactly the way marxists describe themselves?
Which Marxists?
I'm not trying to distort reality to make my argument.
Constructing a false consensus, particularly one that runs entirely contrary to the established historical consensus and openly misuses the work of historical theorists to suggest a position they would not have endorsed (without making it clear that you are engaged in a product of revisionism and what the political investment of that project is) is a distortion of reality.
I take these people at their word, I understand their ideals, and I still strongly disagree with the whole thing.
Which people do you take at their word? Which ideals do you understand? What is this "whole thing" you disagree with?
Because again, if we're going to try to position "communism" as a clear, singular ideological position, then it is not the position you're claiming it is. If you want communism to include everything ever described as communist by anyone, then you kind of need to give up on the idea that there is a "whole thing" you can agree or disagree with.
It's not nearly that simple. Property ownership is a single hierarchy out of many, the cultural revolution was not an accident, the pursuit of equality at the expense of virtue leaves you with a society thoroughly equalized in misery and hatred.
Who told you that communism is about the pursuit of "equality"? Who told you that "equality" for the sake of equality was the goal of the cultural revolution?
The cultural revolution was a nationalist project that specifically involved forms of unequal treatment. It involved the brutal suppression and persecution of ethnic minorities, for example.
It was also very much framed as a
virtuous project. Outside of ethnic minorities, most of those targeted for persecution were targeted for their perceived class backgrounds. At the core of a lot of these persecutions was a desire for vengeance, and a belief that morality could not be satisfied without vengeance. The people who had suffered were entitled to vengeance against their abusers, and failing that against their entire "kind" (dehumanization was a common feature of the cultural revolution and its persecutions, the idea that certain kinds of people were simply less moral or less human). These people were specifically
not equals, they could not be allowed to just exist and assimilate peacefully into the national body, not until the good people, the virtuous people, had been allowed to take the vengeance they deserved.
No communist regime has ever laboured under the belief that its policies are intended to deliver a universally equal society. In some cases, the policies of communist regimes have been specifically aimed at
reinforcing the social hierarchy, such as the Khmer Rogue banning marriages between people of different social strata. This is only "hypocritical" if you imagine that the goal is to immediately deliver some perfect utopian society, which it never was.
Ironically, if you want to find people in history who actually wanted to bring about some universal equality for all human beings, you'd be better off looking at dissenting Christian movements of early modern Engand, such as the early Quakers, Ranters and the Diggers. Marxists are almost universally materialists, the Marxist conception of equality is a material equality based on the ability to meet material needs. The type of equality you seem to be talking about is something else, and something that historically has only really existed as a form of intense spiritualization of everyday life found in certain religious movements.
I have a personal theory that the unmet need for spiritual connection and belonging within a community has been one of the most powerful (and dangerous) political forces of the past few hundred years. I think in most cases if you dig into the core of "utopian" politics and why people are drawn to it, you will not find an abstract desire for material equality or national supremacy or any other statement of belief, but a simple fear of alienation and a desire to be part of an authentic community. The real utopia is not just that everyone gets enough food to eat, but that everyone is part of a society where they are loved and valued enough to be considered worthy of having enough food to eat. The love is what people want, the food is a convenient side effect.