So basicly, like 80% of my life i always have simply hated myself for how i looked,
and by that i mean my body, i have a bit too mutch weight and well a lot of people seem to really struggle with that.
i can honestly say where i fnally came to a point where i took more action and motivation to actually start losing that extra weight, but by all means it really isnt easy!
I feel in a sort of battle with myself everytime again, and i have a wonderful boyfriend, to my feeling the relationship is really getting serious, and he says he loves my appearance.
I know he wouldnt lie about something like that, but this part of me just doesnt believe it.
And i am not talking in a way of *Omg i cant believe he loves my appearance*
No i am talking about actually having a part of me disbelieving that, because i have build up so mutch hate towards myself i struggle really hard to believe any compliment made about my body.
Also i know he usually isnt great fan of bigger girls like that so that only adds up to my feeling of *Why the hell do you love mine then*
besides all other stress i have every day this just adds up to it, and i wonder if besides just working really hard on changing if i could do something... because right now it is simply driving me nuts.
and by that i mean my body, i have a bit too mutch weight and well a lot of people seem to really struggle with that.
i can honestly say where i fnally came to a point where i took more action and motivation to actually start losing that extra weight, but by all means it really isnt easy!
I feel in a sort of battle with myself everytime again, and i have a wonderful boyfriend, to my feeling the relationship is really getting serious, and he says he loves my appearance.
I know he wouldnt lie about something like that, but this part of me just doesnt believe it.
And i am not talking in a way of *Omg i cant believe he loves my appearance*
No i am talking about actually having a part of me disbelieving that, because i have build up so mutch hate towards myself i struggle really hard to believe any compliment made about my body.
Also i know he usually isnt great fan of bigger girls like that so that only adds up to my feeling of *Why the hell do you love mine then*
besides all other stress i have every day this just adds up to it, and i wonder if besides just working really hard on changing if i could do something... because right now it is simply driving me nuts.