Not cool enough for modern alternative rock, not intense and sombre enough for melodic death metal, too law-abiding, clean, and soft-spoken for punk, too impatient for "indie", not gangster enough for rap or hip-hop...
I let my mind wonder off to various ambitions while barely leaving my steady banal routine, ideally concern my mind with important societal issues although I get disillusioned, confused and lost in the usual things, self-critical, a little bit critical in general, indecisive, untidy, droll awkward humour, can be vague and/or nonsensical, was very uptight and awkward but broke out of that mostly and began to smile more and be more flexible in my interactions, stifled power-thirst, aggression, and adventurousness...
Post-punk, perhaps?