For 19.5 years, girls have mostly avoided or ignored me, so I never looked out for a girl, honestly I don't know what I liked in girls back then either.. However, a year ago I started talking with people online, for serious, and most of them are, in fact, girls.
On top of that, I'm convinced that about half a year ago, I realized I have feelings for one of them. She's a sweet, funny, smart and very pretty girl. Among other things she's got dark brown eyes I'm certain I'll be lost in them if I look her in the eyes xD She's a good friend, and has said I don't have a hard time making her laugh, which is quite something for a guy whose jokes don't often came through in the past.
Unfortunately though, she.. lives in another country. Though, I'll meet her someday, perhaps this year if luck and chance is on my side, and then I'll maybe get to see if I actually genuinely can love her, and if she's really the one I would wish to spend my life with..
Then the only question for me would be if she could love me..
At least I did get to have a crush on a sweet and cute girl just a month before I turned 20, which to my old self would be unbelievable.