It?s impossible to not fear death, because humans are naturally afraid of the unknown. No-one, not even the die-hard religious Theists, are 100% certain what happens after you die. Lying as an empty shell underground (I mean, how do you deal with that? How can you imagine not ever feeling anything again; one moment you?re there and the next?you?re not) is just as much of a possibility that you flying up to the pearly gates of Heaven and living out the rest of your afterlife in a lesbian cloud (anyone who gets the reference wins a free cookie), or being reincarnated into a rabbit. So yeah, while there are people that pass on very peacefully and pleasantly on their deathbed, there?s an equal amount of people that pass on in sheer panic and physical/mental pain because they haven?t come to terms with their fading existence.
I?d very much like to die in my sleep, as I?ve heard that?s probably the most relaxed way to die: practically being unconscious, like a second, painless sleep. That way, I might not have to experience the fear of being conscious and literally feeling my life slipping away from me. But I?d want to die at around 65, because I don?t think there?d be anything left for me to do after that point, and life would be shit enough as it is. I definitely don?t want to die in a retirement home, my mental state reduced to that of a child, without the ability to remember my own name and lacking proper bladder control. That?s why I hate how humans are apparently living longer, because that?ll just make things worse for everyone (resources, depression, etc.) and if I?m still going at 100, I?m just going to go, ?Fuck it?, and pull the trigger on myself.
