I regularly waste upwards of 15 minutes on a single post, often more, just to try to make a point
-to someone who I know won't be open to my words and will throw out my entire wall of well thought-out and double-checked text to rip apart one thing I kind-of said in a sentence in there.
-or, to nobody at all, because I'm absolutely sure nobody will even read my post.
It's happened time and time again, yet I keep doing it every day. And I constantly check back in, looking for new responses to my posts. I delve into comment sections for certain kinds of news articles and whatnot like a troll seeking out victims, yet my intentions could hardly be further from those. I find those posts that I knew beforehand would be there, single out a few that are almost identical in nature, and the most closed-minded, and start letting the paragraphs flow.
Sometimes I get a response. On rare occasions, I actually end up opening someone up just a bit. They appreciate my truthfulness and how I take all sides of an argument into consideration and don't treat things like a debate I'm trying to win, and that gets them to accept what I have to say. It doesn't happen much, but it always feels so good. Like I'm helping someone enjoy gaming just a bit more, making them a bit more open to new games and opinions.
I guess that's why I do it, but damn if it isn't the biggest waste of time, and I spend way too much of it just doing...
well, this. I'm doing it right now. Blathering on and wasting another 10 minutes of my life to type out another wall of text nobody ends up reading.
I have a rather addictive personality. I'm also very easily distracted. Too easily distracted to end up caring for long enough to seriously consider whether it's a mental disorder or not. Heh.
Damn good thing I haven't started going to Reddit or using StumbleUpon.