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[Iranoutofnames]

.... how to phrase this right . Guess i need to get this out among other things ... So basically i have nothing to live for . Just turned 20 ( yay ! )and realised my life has been shit so far . Dont feel pleasure in doing anything , no love for anything or anyone and when i think about it this has been going for a good 10 or more years . Now i know some of you are probably thinking that i should just go and see a theraphist and i do go and see one , got prescribed anti depressants , but all they do is just allow me to function for a short while in an even number state . Video games used to help too before , not so much more ..... Kinda of a loner , but those who socialise with me would most likely be unable to tell that . Been stuck with the same friends for years and truth be told by this point i want to murder them due to sheer annoyance they cause now . The lack of love is what is killing me most at this point ....
Did try datiing but ... well nothing theres nothing . Guess i should try picking up some new activities but in this state nothing excites me . Dont know why im posting this , its clear that im depressed ... I probably want some ,, it gets better ! '' lines those when comming from the therapist give a little boost in the mood department for a tad short while and maybe some stories from people who already had to deal with something like this .

 

[Palfreyfish]

Are you future me? I'm 18 and I feel much the same way about life/friends/etc... And I'm in pretty much the sane boat as you which is technically not what you really wanted to hear...

However, there are always people out there to talk to, like me, so PM me if you need a chat etc, and chances are, you'll find someone eventually.

-Snip-

 

[Jedoro]

Dude, just keep moving. Life may get better, and it may not. But it definitely won't unless you keep living it. We're all lost in the woods with no map, trail, or compass. All there is to do is make our own way and hope it leads somewhere better.

 

[FilipJPhry]

Remember: Depression is a temporary problem. It can be treated, but not entirely by a therapist. YOU need to treat it as well. Look at my post to help out the other guy. It can apply to you too. If you're looking for new friends, I suggest joining a club or just check out the bar scene. Don't drink your life away, though! There's no woman out there for you or are you thinking the women you've met suck? Don't think like that. Always go for the good-tier or Goddess-tier.
Look at my tips to becoming an alpha male here: http://www.escapistmagazine.com/forums/read/538.352373-Depression-Tell-Me-What-to-Do

Playing video-games have lost their touch, eh? What games have you been playing? Honest question, too. If you play RPG's, they might bring out a feeling of dread sometimes. Buy a new game that's a totally different genre of what you're used to. Best to buy a used one, too so you won't feel ripped off.

 

[Vegosiux]

Well, you know, when things got gloomy, I always said "But damn, I don't want to miss that hockey game on Tuesday, cause it's gonna be great." In the end, what you do is up to you. Others may offer suggestions in good faith, but what works for them may not work for you...what doesn't work for them, may very well work for you.

So, the only answer I can give you is: "Do stuff".

 

[Smooth Operator]

Well doing new things is always advisable but when you are dead set to dislike everything there sadly isn't much point.

All I can really say here is work with your therapist, I know a lot of people just treat them as someone to put up a good show for but you really can't do that if you want them to genuinely help resolve this.

 

[loa]

I hate to say it but you seeking the cure for how you feel in a partner probably won't work the way you think it will.
There is no one in this world who can just come into your life, take you into their arms and take all your worries away.
It's a comforting thought, sure, but it has little to do with reality.
That's your construct born of your desires, you need to be aware of that.

Going into it with that mindset... well... you won't be happy.
Perhaps in the short run, it'll work but in the long run you'll probably set yourself up for disappointment and probably for a deep and scary fall.

 

[bluepilot]

You sound really lonely and maybe you just need a friend, or a hug, or a box full of kittens.

I've been where you are, young, a loner, on anti-depressants, not being able to relate to those around me. Speaking from experience I can tell you that it really is temporary and there is a way out. But you have to find it and it won't happen over night. There are a lot of things in your life that you cannot take control of but the things that you can control, grab them and control them as much as you can. For example, make sure you eat, exercise, take long walks. It sounds stupid but if you can get the small things right the rest really does take care of itself. Get these things wrong and it can send you spiraling down and further into your own mind.


It is okay if you had a crappy childhood too. The best thing about being an adult is that you can have your own childhood but get to make your own rules, hence I have a room full of pikachi and totoro dolls.

 

[Iranoutofnames]

Thanks for your responses . They .... Helped not sure for how long , but they did . Thank you , all of you .

 

[Galletea]

There isn't much more to be added here, but the thing is that you are not alone. There are people who care about you and your therapist will actually want to help you. Most of them don't do it just because they like the pay, they actually want to make the difference to help you get back on track. Depression is a temporary blip, and no matter how bleak it looks there is a way out if you look hard enough. Talk to the professionals, and make it clear that you do not want medication if you can help it, they can make various suggestions to help you before resorting to drugs.
Love is one of those things that will come along eventually, but for now it would be best to focus on getting yourself better, and then your self confidence will massively improve. Then you can think about dating, since then you will be able to focus on the person you are with.

 

[the clockmaker]

Go on the offensive, pick an dream and start heading towards it so that every day you can look at yourself and say, 'this is the step forward that I took today.' two years ago (holy fuck that went quick!) I was unemployed, friendless and with no prospects. Today I have friends, a fantastic career and so many prospects that my life is currently a choice between awesome and brilliant, still no girlfriend, but that is another story for another time. My point is take this one day at a time and do not let the world beat you, look at yourself and say that 'I am (your name) and I am better than this shit'.