Duplicate thread, ignore! Sorry.

[Doclector]

I just came to a crushing revelation. I'm going back to college for my last term on Wednesday, and if I get good grades, onto university this September (thanks, british government, for making a gap year impossible!) to study film, from which point I hope to get into the industry. However, this means that I only gave a few months until everything becomes an endless uphill struggle. I will never again have nothing to worry about. I will be living near and with other students, normal people, for three years, I can't hide from them anymore, I will never feel safe again. I'll never again be able to expect some forgiveness for the mistakes i make.

I guess I've made this post partially to vent and also to ask when everyone else's 'tipping point' was? When did life start having to be organised for you, when things got serious? I get the feeling this point is something everyone reaches, a "quarter life crisis" as such.

This is a duplicate thread, sorry bout that. Please ignore it.

 

[katsumoto03]

I feel like I'm at that point right now. So many of my friends are graduating High School this year and it's got me thinking about where my life is going.

 

[tigermilk]

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I'm currently doing my masters degree in film, good to meet someone else who wants to pursue their passion.

I think once you get to university you may be able to relax a bit. If you get good grades trust me your first year will not be an uphill struggle. The first year (hell all three years) can be a bit of a breeze. Yes if you want to puruse a career in film (theory/academia or practical/production?) then it is worth pushing yourself that bit further. You will probably meet dicks in university but you will also meet like minded people who I am sure share a number of your anxieties.

Most degree schemes don't count the first year towards your final degree, this is your fuck up/fine tuning year and as for everything else, don't drink to excess in freshers week and you will be one of the few not to fuck up.

Of course none of this helps, I felt the same when before I started uni (also in England) and nothing anyone could have said would reassure me.

If you are enthusiastic about your subject (it sounds like you are) you will be popular in seminars and with tutors. If you listen to people they will (on the whole respect you) and remember "don't worry about what other people think of you... they don't".

I also worked with potential students throughout my undergraduate degree (open days where people come to see the university etc). Most of them were very nervous and understandably so (some were better at hiding it than others).

Well I best be getting on I have 5000 words to write on Taxi Driver (Scorsese 1977) before 4pm Tuesday.