Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk.
All of Chuck's Books (Invisible Monsters, Choke, Rant, Fight Club, Survivor, Snuff and some others) offer interesting storytelling conventions.
In the case of invisible monsters, there's a few interesting themes that I can identify with. First, you have the idea of utterly changing our basic nature and place in the universe - with Invisible Monsters the main character is a fashion model who shoots her self in the face (non fatally) resulting in severe disfigurement. In another case we have a young man who decides to become a woman. The protagonist of Invisible Monsters even goes so far as to state "'I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure.' A spinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined". The protagonist in Fight Club expresses the same sentiment when he says "Maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.? In both instances, the characters wanted to redefine who they were without any baggage from their past, and to do that they each do what scared them the most. In fact, this is a common theme of Chuck's work. In Fight Club the protagonist effort for redefinition was found by creating an alternate personality. In both cases in Invisible Monsters, the change is found through intentional self destruction.
There is a certain aspect of intentional self-destruction that I can admire. One's character is rarely tested, and one never seems to recognize those moments in life that are truly important until it's all irrelevent. ("Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up." - From invisible monsters). All our lives we are traped by our past - from the values I was given as a child to the decisions I've made because of them, and it seems that there is no way to truly escape this fact. I like to believe that, given the chance to do it all over again, to start again without all the emotional baggage of my past or the cage of my world perspective, I could become a better human being. But, in the end, I cannot bring myself to destroy the sum total of what I've built of my life to try my hand fresh. There have been times in life where I've stood on the very brink of doing exactly that, of being handed the keys to my cage and each time I've rejected the notion. I'd like to believe that I'm capable of taking the plunge, of casting off my notions of right and wrong and staring anew.
Just as importantly, Invisible Monsters is, at it's heart a love story, but it's one that I at least find plausable. My own experience in romance has taught me that love apparently doesn't exist like it does in the story books. There's something there to be sure, at the edge of my ability to grasp or describe, yet it remains aloof enough that I fear I might never understand it well enough to truly find that "special someone".