*deep breath*
I...eaaacgh
*puts hand ponderingly up to cheeck*
Maybe I should just lay out how I feel and not arrange or fancy it up.
I don''t like a lot of what that man has said over the last 4-5 years.
I don't like even more what the things he's said have done to a lot of people.
He's a human being.
He's not a cartoon antagonist who always says evil things because he's evil.
He deserves anything anyone else does.
I fully want to believe him, believe what he says, that he's changed. That he's finally realized the damage he's caused.
But a part of my brain screams "This human is a snake, with a snakes tongue. He can make anything sound good.
Listening is the first step to falling into it's deception."
One thing that kind of derailed the moment a bit is when he attributed all the bad stuff to the 90's, before he was sober.
I've heard him say terrible, ridiculous things from 2000 onward, both on Fox News and his radio show.
I'm not saying "Aha! Contradiction! Everything else is invalid!" but I would like some further clarification on that if possible.
*sigh*
That made me tear up, because I do have an emotional core left rolling around inside somewhere apparently.
Despite one half of my brain assuring me there is no way this man can change, no way he would even want to.
He's still a human being.
So perhaps foolishly, I believe him.
If he's willing to make a change, to repair some of what he's done and truly stop spreading the paranoia and hate that he has done over the last 4-5 years, I'm willing to treat him with dignity and civility.