shadowstriker86 said:
well its not only that, sometimes i see myself smashing someones face into a wall and breaking their arm in half and it all happens at random whenever im not distracted. hell i remember one time i saw someone walking by my house when all of a sudden i saw myself leaping at them with knives and slicing them to ribbons. like i said i feel like im goin nuts
Well dude, it sounds to me like you have an inner struggle of your mind. I spent most of my childhood thinking about how my family would react if I were to die, and how the world would change of X event happened. Lots of stuff that would get me in a straitjacket if I were older.
Your visions of mutilation may have a variety of sources.
Most probably, like me, you were bored. So you imagine something. Nothing wrong with that. The only problem that will come from it, is if you worry too much. Then you will become paranoid and start
ACTUALLY thinking about it.
If this is the case, just relax. If the thoughts come back, think about it all the way through. If you were to break their arm in half, would they crawl away? Would they scream in agony? Deeper thinking of these things will help you feel distaste for the thoughts. Be realistic in how people would react. And remember that it is all in your mind.
You may have pent up rage. If so, talk to someone, or go outside and chop some wood. No gloves.
I have a
very vivid mind, but am unable to draw even so much as a tree without it being ugly. So I design things in my head. Monsters, weapons, faces, people...
I suggest either a little manual labor, or deeper thinking on the visions.
SOURCE: My own little mind.
Hope this helps. I had counseling for...what, 3 years as a kid? Never helped one bit. I just played Blackjack with the dude.
EDIT: I hope you don't consider me crazy. If somebody pisses me off, I might want to hit them, or I might imagine rushing up to them, placing my right arm behing them, then grabing their head and throwing them to the ground. I know some wrestling moves.
