Have you ever hit rock bottom?

[Redlin5_v1legacy]

You know, the point at which you can't say "it can always be worse" without lying to yourself?

I have been fortunate to never reach that stage in my life. I've had a good life, probably better than I deserve. I can't think of a single time where I couldn't feel worse if I tried.

So, what was your lowest moment?

How did you recover?

We don't need gory or disgusting details here but if you can tell others here how to deal with tremendous stress healthily, we may be able to save a few people who are suffering on this site from making hasty decisions.

I would like to believe the world is a place where people didn't get into dire situations but I'm only an optimist, not deluded. I sincerely hope that people realize that you can pick yourself back up from anything if you set your mind to it.

 

[DarthFennec]

I don't think you can hit rock bottom. Unless there's a Hell like the Christians say, and someone ends up there, the way I was taught that's about as rock-bottom as you can get.

 

[Marter]

Back in September. I finally had enough with living with my mother, (for various reasons I will not be posting here. It's a long story). Anyway, I finally left her house, and went through a short, yet intense period of depression. Ended up snapping out of it though, and now am doing quite well for myself.

 

[Disaster Button]

My lowest moment would have been a few months ago when I was on Prozac which made me feel a hell of a lot worse than I already was. It reached the point where I tried to commit seppuku, but failed.. obviously. I came off the drugs a few days after and after looking back at how I felt whilst taking them, it was like my life wasn't my own but some horrible nightmare instead. I'm glad I never went back on those.

But yeah, that would be my low point. I haven't truly recovered because I'm still getting help from a therapist but I'm way better now than how I was then.

 

[Johanthemonster666]

Yes, it was during my time in private school and it followed me up till now. The depression from that place still lingers and I'm slowly overcomning the major factors (that have nothing to do with the school in so much as my own self esteem, my dysfunctional family and so on.

I'm in college now, but still a big loner with only few friends. This isn't because I'm unlikable but because I myself am afraid to reach out.


I'm very sociable and pretty much a mix of a bookworm, creative thinker/artist that has diverse interests.

I do work everyday to get back up and I think my boyfriend is a big factor in my support (he's not my crutch, but he cheers me on and loves me unconditionally)

 

[Johanthemonster666]

P.S I've suffered from depression since I was about 10. I'm slowly recovering from all those years, but it's very slow I'm afraid.

I have hope in my own creativity and potential I suppose, I just need to work at it with every last inch of my being.

 

[Cody211282]

Yep happened to me twice, and I just drug myself through it.

 

[Necrofudge]

I don't think you can hit rock bottom. Unless there's a Hell like the Christians say, and someone ends up there, the way I was taught that's about as rock-bottom as you can get.

But even then there's supposedly different levels of it.
So in a way, there are different types of "rock-bottom"

 

[Stone Wera]

I hit rock bottom when I realized that was hardly even a citizen of my own country. I couldn't get a job, drive, or even vote! Why didn't anyone else have the same problem I had with being a minor? I feel better about it now, but I have like fifteen some dollars to my name. Nothing else.

 

[Diligent]

My personal rock bottom was when I was so depressed I dropped out of college.
There were so many factors contributing to that, and before that happened I was always the type who would say "We live in Canada, (applicable to any first world nation) what the fuck do you have to be depressed about?"
The mind is a fragile thing, and it is possible for any normal well adjusted person to undergo so much stress that you just snap and every waking moment feels like you're trapped in a personal hell.
Without going into detail, my final dreamlike day in my college dorm involved me freaking out, and causing about $200 worth of damage to the room.
Then I went home.

Anyway, all that is behind me, and I'm going for round 2 of post secondary education in the form of university next year, and hopefully I can approach it from a better mental state.

EDIT: Wow, now that I read that back, it's almost embarrassing because I am otherwise a completely non-violent and polite person.

 

[DarthFennec]

I don't think you can hit rock bottom. Unless there's a Hell like the Christians say, and someone ends up there, the way I was taught that's about as rock-bottom as you can get.

But even then there's supposedly different levels of it.
So in a way, there are different types of "rock-bottom"

True, except I never believed in any of Dante's bullshit. Of course who am I to say? I don't believe in Hell anymore anyway.

If I may quote: "Consider yourself lucky that life has been good to you so far. Alternatively, if life hasn't been good to you so far, which given your present circumstances seems more likely, consider yourself lucky that it won't be troubling you much longer." This is from the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy movie, which is odd because I don't remember this quote at all from the trilogy. But this is my driving point. You can't hit rock bottom, because you still have the fact that you're alive to be thankful for. Once you don't, fuck it, you're in a better place, so you still have nothing to complain about. Unless of course you went to Hell when you died, which is something I've already gone over. Maybe Dante's right, maybe you happen to be in purgatory or some other higher circle, in which case, the only people in the world (according to Inferno) who have ever hit rock bottom are Judas, Brutus, and Cassius. And I'm pretty sure none of them have accounts here.

On the other hand, this is an interesting topic. I'd like to see what other people have gone through, what they consider to be "rock bottom." I can tell each and every person here that that is nowhere near as bad as you can get, but on the other hand, I can also tell each and every person here that I've probably never been through it myself, so I won't judge on that count.

 

[Julianking93]

If you consider the 3 times I've attempted suicide, yes and obviously, yes I recovered.

I got over my depression and am now an extremely happy being.

Sure, I still have my bad days, but so does everyone.

 

[Yureina]

The closest I got to this point was (almost exactly) 7 years ago, which was the culmination of an entire year of recrimination, self-destruction, and acts of extreme insanity. I don't want to get much more specific than that. Eventually, in regards to the event I am thinking of, I hit a point where I realized what I had become after a full year of this chaos. I didn't try to kill myself, because that isnt my nature, but this was probably the closest I ever got to seriously considering carrying it out. It was not a very comforting moment, and its consequences sucked about 5 years out of my life that could have been much better spent. I won't ever get those years back, but I can, at the present, finally be able to move forward to create something new.

 

[Rylot]

Considering I'm 40K in debt from failing out of college with no job prospects, so yeah I'm kinda there. I do have a place to stay and food so I guess it's not completely rock bottom but pretty close. Not really sure how I'm gonna get out of it.

 

[FallenJellyDoughnut]

I'm pretty sure if I hit the Rock's ass he would turn me into a bloody pulp.

Seriously though, when my parents broke up, we were 20k in debt with pretty much no money.

 

[Miumaru]

From others like me that Ive met, no. However if I join the military, then I know I did.

 

[arsenicCatnip]

I've gone as low as I can go a couple of times, and have managed to pull myself back up from those depths.

First time was when I was 18. Circumstances I don't talk about forced me to flee, only to be dragged back into the hell that was my home life.

Second time was from just over a year and a half ago until about 3 months ago. Divorce, shitty housemates, lack of money, and a burgeoning eating disorder kind of made my life hell. I'm managing to dig out of everything but it's still kind of kicking my butt on occasion.

 

[Lizmichi]

yea, I've hit rock bottom and each time it nearly kills me. If you don't mind I really don't feel like discussing what it was other then to say my depression took over my life at that point. It was about 6 months ago and lasted till February. I was a mess. I cried at almost anything, I felt alone and lost, I felt like life didn't matter and that I was better of gone from this world.
I got out of it by talking to a counselor and looking around and seeing all the good things that have happened to me over the years, yea bad things too but everyone has them. I got my drive back to keep going and find where I fit in this world.

 

[RatRace123]

Just recently in fact, in giving respect to all of those involved I can't actually mention why or how. But I can say my lowest point didn't just involve me, though I had to pull myself out of it.

It wasn't bad, I thought originally... evidently I was wrong.

 

[Not-here-anymore]

My personal rock bottom was when I was so depressed I dropped out of college.
There were so many factors contributing to that, and before that happened I was always the type who would say "We live in Canada, (applicable to any first world nation) what the fuck do you have to be depressed about?"
The mind is a fragile thing, and it is possible for any normal well adjusted person to undergo so much stress that you just snap and every waking moment feels like you're trapped in a personal hell.
Without going into detail, my final dreamlike day in my college dorm involved me freaking out, and causing about $200 worth of damage to the room.
Then I went home.

Anyway, all that is behind me, and I'm going for round 2 of post secondary education in the form of university next year, and hopefully I can approach it from a better mental state.

EDIT: Wow, now that I read that back, it's almost embarrassing because I am otherwise a completely non-violent and polite person.

Essentially this, but without the property damage. Instead, I spent about 3 days just staring at a wall, without really thinking that it was a particularly strange thing to do... I barely ate during that time (still don't, so probably not entirely over it), and didn't sleep at all.

Yeah, depression as a mental illness is a *****. I (partially) got over it by essentially developing a second personality to use in everyday life, and then ditching the depressed one.