Have you just felt like crap for a reason you really couldn't put your finger on? That's kind of where I am right now. I'm not exactly sure why I feel like crap right now, from an objective standpoint I'm doing pretty well. Roof over my head, stable source of income, no signs of loosing anything or anyone I hold near and dear but...my best friend is moving halfway across the country in a couple of days for school, odds are I won't see him for months on end and let's get something straight, he's the only friend I hang out with on a regular basis, even when I hang out with his friends that he's known for awhile today, it was the second time I've ever seen seem. I'm starting university in a couple of weeks, going to a completly unfamilar environment, leaving everyone that I've known for the past four years of high school behind, and I think I might be coming down with something I like to call "The Grass is Always Greener" syndrom, mainly because one of the friends of my friend that I mentioned earlier went on a mini-rant today about how awesome some of her Playstation games are, espically persona, and I looked up a couple of clips and now I'm coming down with said syndrom. Also I think my crappy self-esteem is kicking in again, mainly because one of the scenes that I looked up was a romance thing (you know, that thing that's never going to happen to me on account of me being forever alone) it's just...I'm a mess right now. Fuck's sake I'm even crying right now. What point am I trying to make? I haven't the faintest clue, I'm not even sure why I typed this entire thing out. I'm not sure if I wanted to share and start off a topic about this, I'm not sure if I needed to vent, I'm not sure if I just desperatly wanted to convey my frustrations to someone. I don't know, I'm a massive mess right now. So...I have no freaking clue. Have you ever just felt like crap when every logical aspect of your mind said that you should be happy but the emotinal half disagreed? I...I'm sorry. I just needed to get that out.