Overtly. One of the greatest components of forgiveness is forgetting, yet, I cannot. Whenever I talk to or meet someone who has spited me in the past, all I can remember is everything I feel they have ever done to wrong me or cause me grief. I power through it as hard as I can for I, in my heart of hearts, have no desire to harbour these feelings and wish to remain on amicable terms if not retain true friendship, but as near as I can figure, I can never forgive and there is always that desire to get even.
This is easily one of the greatest flaws in my personality, however, I must be doing OK because no one else seems to notice, even with the people I share this knowledge.