I feel stuck...

[Free Thinker]

I'm your usual quiet guy in high school. Granted not overly geeky, but I'm a closet geek. I'm not ugly, I've been told I'm cute, and I'm not chubby. I'm just quiet, have a few friends, and usually keep to myself. I've been happy with that, until recently. I find myself wanting more, beyond my introverted nature. But I feel this change in my attitude didn't come soon enough. I want to go out with friends, I want to go to parties, I want to go on dates with girls. Granted I'm not completely friendless, but even then, I'm beginning to doubt who really means it. I feel as though they're too afraid to say something to offend me, when all I want is the truth.

I feel as though no one truly understands me, and that I'm stereotyped permanently. I might have a date with a girl, she didn't say yes, but she didn't say no. I feel as though she doesn't want to hurt my feelings, which have already been severely scarred with my horrid childhood and bullying which lead me into this rut of being a loner and wanting more. Yes, I am seeing a therapist, but you can't talk away depression, most of the time. I've been doing everything I can to put myself out there, but I'm getting turned down, rejected, and just plain ignored. Which stings even more so since I've kind of put up a wall around me due to past issues with one girl, and people who I thought were friends. This just seems like a bloody vicious cycle, and I feel as though college won't be any different.

 

[WolfThomas]

Highschool does eventually end and what comes next be it University or the real world is better. It's almost like you get a clean slate, I'm not saying you should be someone you're not, but it gives you a chance to be yourself without the weight of previous history bearing down on you. Stick it out and it'll get better.

Also people like self-confidence and that only comes from self-respect. Love yourself before others can love you.
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[bizentine]

I feel as though no one truly understands me

I want you to think for a moment how stereo-typical a statement that is.

How many adults do you know who would say that?

It will be over soon. Being a teenager is unpleasant. but you'll grow up, and you'll grow out of it.

 

[Sarcastic_Applause]

I'm your usual quiet guy in high school. Granted not overly geeky, but I'm a closet geek. I'm not ugly, I've been told I'm cute, and I'm not chubby. I'm just quiet, have a few friends, and usually keep to myself. I've been happy with that, until recently. I find myself wanting more, beyond my introverted nature. But I feel this change in my attitude didn't come soon enough. I want to go out with friends, I want to go to parties, I want to go on dates with girls. Granted I'm not completely friendless, but even then, I'm beginning to doubt who really means it. I feel as though they're too afraid to say something to offend me, when all I want is the truth.

I feel as though no one truly understands me, and that I'm stereotyped permanently. I might have a date with a girl, she didn't say yes, but she didn't say no. I feel as though she doesn't want to hurt my feelings, which have already been severely scarred with my horrid childhood and bullying which lead me into this rut of being a loner and wanting more. Yes, I am seeing a therapist, but you can't talk away depression, most of the time. I've been doing everything I can to put myself out there, but I'm getting turned down, rejected, and just plain ignored. Which stings even more so since I've kind of put up a wall around me due to past issues with one girl, and people who I thought were friends. This just seems like a bloody vicious cycle, and I feel as though college won't be any different.

It's like looking into a mirror (or reading a mirror?). I'm in the same boat; I think a good percentage of putting yourself out there is rolling with the proverbial punches of rejection. I've got a similar issue with dating, except it's trying to find guys instead (but not cliche gays). It is about tearing the introverted wall I suppose, keep trying, its a case of jumping in to these situations when they appear, it can then go from spur of the moment into a trend.

I hope this helps; being a hardline introvert is what got me in this situation too; one experience is sometimes enough to not care anymore