I often feel like I'm alone in the world, with no one reaching out to me or making me feel valued. Every time, it seems like I have to take the first step towards building a connection. Whether it's talking to strangers or trying to form a bond with someone I relate to, like this techlead who had a similar experience despite his popular YouTube channel and traveling.
I understand what he went through because I face the same challenges. The advice on chatting up strangers isn't helpful since there is no enjoyment in it for me. I can't remember anyone ever truly brightening my day; instead, people mostly judged or condescended towards me. It's frustrating to hear that it's all my fault, like I'm surrounded by heartless assholes who don't care about others.
This constant negativity has affected me as well, and now I find myself acting in the same way. Recently, I faced a situation where I was sued by an asshole. I took it upon myself to dig up dirt and use every tactic available to win against him and his lawyer. The outcome? I came out on top and the person went to a psychiatry.
Nowadays, when someone needs help, I find that my compassion has diminished, I see compassion as a dumb leftover of Disney indoctrination. Consequently, I don't take the initiative to assist others. Some person asked me to help build a tent, I just went with "No, not interested in helping someone like you" and when they act up I just destroy their self-esteem.
I understand what he went through because I face the same challenges. The advice on chatting up strangers isn't helpful since there is no enjoyment in it for me. I can't remember anyone ever truly brightening my day; instead, people mostly judged or condescended towards me. It's frustrating to hear that it's all my fault, like I'm surrounded by heartless assholes who don't care about others.
This constant negativity has affected me as well, and now I find myself acting in the same way. Recently, I faced a situation where I was sued by an asshole. I took it upon myself to dig up dirt and use every tactic available to win against him and his lawyer. The outcome? I came out on top and the person went to a psychiatry.
Nowadays, when someone needs help, I find that my compassion has diminished, I see compassion as a dumb leftover of Disney indoctrination. Consequently, I don't take the initiative to assist others. Some person asked me to help build a tent, I just went with "No, not interested in helping someone like you" and when they act up I just destroy their self-esteem.
does it lift after some time automatically or will it require some sort of assertiveness with communication?
