"I'm An Asshole"

[staika]

I'm disappointed in myself I can't remember one instance

I was always a soft spoken kid (side effect from moving so often) so I never really said anything mean to people, which is sad because then I just remember all the super embarrassing stuff and those hurt me every time I think of one

 

[Biosophilogical]

I had some time to myself today and I was thinking about places I'd gone and people I'd met when I was younger (about ten or so) and a particularly fond memory came back of my time in what was basically a summer camp came back to me.

Throughout all this I also remembered a girl there who I had completely forgotten about. She was about the same age as me, really friendly and I was a total asshole towards her. We had to eat together, she was a little on the chubby side, and I used to make quite snide comments about her weight. It probably sprang from my own insecurities at the time but I look back now and feel so ashamed. I honestly want nothing more than to apologise to her although, maybe I don't deserve to ease my conscience over it.

Looking back on it now I can't believe that I would be that horrible to someone else for no reason.

So, what about you? Have you ever looked back on a moment and realised that you had been a dick over something or unnecessarily cruel? Moments that made you think "Wow, I am an asshole".

I have plenty of those moments, and it is those moments that you regret that help define you. Whenever I think about them I wish I could take them back without losing the lesson they taught me, because while I don't regret my actions (they make me a better person because I learn from my mistakes) I do regret that I needed to hurt people to learn not to. So perhaps my biggest regret is that I was too ignorant, because I wouldn't need those lessons if I already knew them.

Does that make sense? It is a delicate topic and I've probably worded it wrong.

 

[Tanis]

I do this on a daily basis.

Jokes about sensitive subjects (weight, religion, wars, mass murder, ect)? - check.
Total disregard for everything else, no sugar on nothing? - check.

Most of the time (READ: 99%) I'm not even TRYING to be an ass, I just don't think before I speak and I come out swinging like Chris Brown at a Rally For Women concert.

 

[Kolby Jack]

I used to abuse the hell out of the only kid shorter and meeker than me in middle school. It was just a natural continuation of the bullying I received, but it doesn't make it right. If I ever saw him again I'd sincerely apologize, though I can't even remember his name and only vaguely remember what he looked like.

But I don't believe in regrets and I do not regret this. It's a valuable lesson to keep in mind and if it never happened I probably wouldn't be as nice a person as I am today. I've already moved past it, and the only reason I would apologize is because he deserves it, not because I feel guilty. I was 12, after all.

 

[Ambi]

I don't even know where to start. As a child I was socially clueless and blunt at times, scornful of weakness, had a bad temper, hated having to be with people I didn't know well, gave into peer pressure despite having qualms, and I irrationally disliked a few individuals. When I got a bit older I was an asshole towards quite a few of my friends, I was an opinionated pseud-intellectual *****, and I was really socially awkward and shy which made me come across as stuck up sometimes. I also put unnecessary stress on my teachers because I was always late and disorganised.

Nowadays I'm more the lazy apathetic brand of asshole who hypocritically points out flaws in other people's ethics and acts aloof without bothering to explain my disdain for something out of laziness, fear of judgement or looking like even more of an asshole, and then just lets a bitter remark every now and then. I avoid everyone at church and rush to sit in the car even if it's like 40 degrees. I was reluctant to make plans with my friend to celebrate graduation. Sometimes I'm terrible with giving presents on time, or giving presents at all. I think about being straight-forward and saying "can we not do the presents thing? It creates unnecessary stress, we don't need any more stuff, and we don't need to buy each other stuff to prove we care about each other (unless we actually need something)." Then I feel like I'd sound like I was being ungrateful for stuff they've given me in the past, then I just get pissed off and feel personally victimised by the TV and all the nice people following conventional consumer obligations and "lovey-dovey" expectations and I still feel like an asshole and there are probably more things >_<

edit: Then there was that time I watched a guy get beat up by some hobo looking guy while screaming and then stumble away and I was so shocked I didn't do anything except shakily go to call the police. I'm still angry at myself for not at least yelling or going to see if the guy needed help after the man who assaulted him ran away. We were just like "never mind, he'll be alright, he's limping away leaning on his bike..."

And there was that time a stray dog kept running on to the road and we didn't even think to stop it, and this lady grabbed it and told us off, and we said "it's not our responsibility".

 

[Soluncreed]

Well, just today my girlfriend started asking me the things I remember about her. I couldn't think of her favorite color, her favorite food, her favorite music, etc. I remembered her bra size, birthday, and that she hates mangos because of the texture. Whoops.

 

[KiKiweaky]

Yes, I think most people have. a positive thing to take from it though is that at least I'm rembering what I and trying not to do so again.

 

[manic_depressive13]

When I was a kid? No, I was the quiet insecure kid that ate flak from people like you. These days I'm pretty hostile, but I've never had the opportunity to insult people who only wanted to be my friend because no one wants to be my friend.

 

[artanis_neravar]

snip

After a year and a half of dating my ex told me she had never been happy in our relationship, that made me feel like an asshole does that count?

We are all assholes

Thank you I started singing that as soon as I read the title

 

[dmase]

There are a lot of things where you look through you memories and say I was such a prick, well congratulations your growing up. The fact that your realizing this now doesn't mean you will stop completely being an asshole but your on the right track. I still say things that the next day all I can think is wow that was stupid and not right.

There are some people that where that "I'm an asshole" remark like its a badge of honor... I really hope that isn't genetic. If it is then i'll be one of those guys in roughly 10 years.

 

[scorptatious]

I remember back in the fourth and fifth grade there was this one kid who happened to be friends with my next door neighbors. Whom I considered my best friends. I was insanely jealous that they hung out with him more than me. And he and I didn't really like each other all that much. So every day, I would go over to where they hang out during recess and lunch and pester them. As a result, he and I would get into a lot of arguments and fights.

It was a long two year war between me and him and eventually it got to the point when I grabbed him and threw him on the ground. As a result, he cried and we were both sent to the principal's office. Both our dads came and had an argument with each other.

While he wasn't exactly trying to be nice to me either, I feel that I should have been nicer and more accepting of the fact that my friends would like to be with other people besides me.

I also remember being quite an asshole during middle school and most of high school. I was hot-headed, I was uncooperative, and I was rude. I called people racial slurs and made fun of them for their weight. I was rude to the many tutors who tried to help me. (One of them even quit because of me.) I was even sent out of the classroom TWICE in a ten minute period.

But I guess it was near the end of my junior year that I realized that I needed to turn things around. I actually accepted my tutor's help, I was a bit more friendly and cooperative, and I even got a job working in the student store. And now I'm in my second year of college. No problems so far. My dad even commented about how much I grew up since then.

I guess I have this man to thank:


Without him I probably wouldn't have realized the direction my life was taking. So thank you Chris Chan. Thank you for being such a massive failure.

 

[OrenjiJusu]

Im constantly being a dick to people, including friends. Most don't care as much since i usually make a joke and a sarcastic comment and all is forgiven.
I'll admit that i have been unecessarily creul to some, bringing one in particular to tears repeatedly when i was younger, but i find it hard to feel any guilt about it. I will admit that "I'm An Asshole", but i don't really feel bad about it.

 

[Captain_Fantastic]

i remember getting into alot of fights in school in the early years but i could never remember what started them but i had just casually put it all under "they teased me into it" then i started to think about just how i was as a child and started to think maybe i was the one who brought all that fighting upon myself

 

[zelda2fanboy]

In third grade I was playing with another kid. I told him to run somewhere and he did. For some reason I suddenly didn't want him to go that direction, so I ran after him. And tackled the kid. On asphalt. For no reason. We both got hurt, but not really badly. Even at the time, I was wondering "Why the hell did I do this?" He was asking a similar question out loud. It's a wonder I didn't get my ass kicked.

 

[Princess_Dee]

Yeah. In the service industry I like to think of myself as "statistics driven" and not "racist." Or "hardened from experience."

Anywho, one day I had a rather large party (14) of...a certain type of person and my generic reaction was, "**** me!"
I was not rude at all, but I rather catered to my other guests more and did not ask if I could provide other exceptional services to them. When it was time to retrieve my tip, I looked at my tray that had some carelessly thrown dollar bills on it. I gave a bittersweet smile and "thanks" and walked away. Later, I realized there was a $50 under the wadded up ones.
I felt like an asshole.

I put myself in a time out later.

 

[General BrEeZy]

i made a joke about a good friends' weight when i was in about 4th grade, and it hurt her, then i genuinely apologized. it sucked that i ever thought of doing that...
but now she's gone off the sour end of the unhappy side of life, and she was an all around A-hole last time i saw her. so i dont care anymore xD

 

[vietfighter]

I have many stories that fit the bill. All I have regret for.

Perhaps the one that I really regret is the time I wasted an orchestra rehearsal in 7th grade by pretending to have my jaw stuck open. I was a stupid asshole, and felt horrible afterwards. I still remember that event clearly.

 

[dyre]

man, I don't even want to think about it. I just tell myself that most of the people I was an asshole to probably acted like an asshole to someone when they were young too. We're just a shitty species.

 

[Dirzzit]

Let's see: In elementary I made fun of an Indian girl and made her cry on a regular basis, called another girl trash everyday, and constantly reminded kids that due to my socio-economic situation I was likely going to be more successful than them.

In middle school I regularly called my friend a slut and picked on all the black, dominican, and mexican kids in my school.

In high school (currently) I remind people that due to my socio-economic situation I am likely going to be more successful than them. Snap at people for asking questions in class, etc etc etc, there's a lot of shit.

But I'm pretty okay with it.

I loled pretty hard.

 

[Commissar Sae]

We are all assholes

damned ninja'd

I've been an ass sometimes in the past, usually felt pretty bad about it though.