I'm scared.

[spartan1077]

When i was going to quit my job (wich i didnt) a friend told me that quitting a job is like commiting suicide. You dont talk about it, just do it, and if you do so well make it something cool like riding a nuclear bomb all the way down to hell Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw !


Cowboys from hell ************ !

Definitly not helpful for a don't commit suicide thingy and also to the OP don't. These people obviously rely on you for something and everyone now and then go to them with your problems and they should listen. Also watch some ZP and Whose Line and you'll feel better

 

[steeple]

I can relate to your situation a little bit....
while I dont think that Im being used as an ear (though I do love listening to people and trying to help as much as I can), I think understand the feeling that you cant talk to anybody about your own problems (I guess thats what you felt). if you do feel that you have no one you can realy talk to, then I suggest either forcing yourself to try and talk to somebody (friend, family, whatever).
also, if the urge to commit suicide rises, then I suggest one thought: do you realy think ending your life prematurely, while causing pain to close-ones, is worth losing the chance to ever feel any emotion ever again (and yes, sadness is included, and I try to be thankfull whenever I can to be able to experience it)?

also remember that runing away from you said more about that girl then about you, and that you can always find people who care and like to listen (E.G. the escapist, with a load of people leaving comments full of advise and sympathy etc...)

if you still feel like you have no one to talk to, im sure you can find hundreds, if not thousands of people here waiting to listen (myself included)

 

[Blindswordmaster]

Well escapists.
I want to tell you guys something, because I have no other place to turn to.
Now what happend was that I suffered a mental breakdown just reccently.
I suffered a mental breakdown because I realized that people only use me as a person to search to, the person who they can "talk to".
When I had a girl come to me and tell me about an issue that she had then I just finally burst into tears.
I don't know why I burst into tears, I really don't, but on that moment I just needed someone to actually be there, and guess what she did?
She looked at me awkwardly and wandered off.
Now you people will probably find this silly, but I've never had anyone to be able to look to except for reccently.
For I've lived most of my days well, alone.
When I was a child then I could never play with the other children because well, they liked shoving me into the dirt and beating me up.
I'm sorry escapists if I bothered you, I'm really depressed and I've been really depressed the last year and I've considered suicide.
Good day and thank you for reading.
J.A

I'm here. I'm listening. I cannot ignore a cry for help, and that sounded like one to me.

 

[Xanadu84]

If you can't deal with your problems, how can you expect her to have any idea of how to deal with your problems? This doeswn't mean that you were wrong for trying to lean on her. Its great to have someone to lean on. Sometimes, people just aren't strong enough to prop you up. Thats life. Cope the best you can, and don't hold it against her. Or you.

It's sad that that's what she did. But people are just people. They want to help, and they care. But they also have no idea what the fuck they are doing in a chaotic, convoluted world where things are rarely black and white, and they barely know what they are thinking half the time. Get whatever you can out of your relationship with her, and try not to hold it against her when she exhibits her flaws.

Remember the immortal words of Larry David in, "Whatever Works":

"I happen to hate New Year's celebrations. Everybody desperate to have fun. Trying to celebrate in some pathetic little way. Celebrate what? A step closer to the grave? That's why I can't say enough times, whatever love you can get and give, whatever happiness you can filch or provide, every temporary measure of grace, whatever works. And don't kid yourself. Because its by no means up to your own human ingenuity. A bigger part of your existence is luck, than you'd like to admit."

 

[OneOfTheMichael's]

This reminds me of what happened to me a while ago.
I was watching wipeout and enjoying other peoples pain when it switched to commercial suddenly.
And i was actually just so involved with the Tv i thought about everything i saw.
New ipod touch commercial came up and i was just blankly starring at it thinking
"Wow this is probably a american commercial/product because they keep on making more slightly advanced products of the exact same model just to keep having us buy them so they get richer and richer".
But thats no kind of reaction to the next commercial.
It was this really sad commercial about animal abuse and examples of it shown.
I usually don't cry at all when watching TV or commercials like this but his time i just broke down in tears and started to wail and make a fool of my self just as my older brother came downstairs.
He just starred at me and said-"....What the fuck?" and ran upstairs.
Weidest moment in my life where i couldn't even control my body or emotions at all.

 

[Ampersand]

Ok this is going to sound cliche but it seems like what you're missing is, like minded people.
Think of something you like or enjoy doing (or something you've never done before but have always wanted to) and then try to find a club you can join.
Some people suck but there are tones of cool people in the world who will totally love you. That's a promise

 

[lacktheknack]

You awkwardness, second-guessing and meekness in that post shows that you have a nasty self-esteem problem.

BUCK UP. Go out and try a bunch of activities until you find one you like! Become the master! Show the planet that you have an ounce of worth somewhere!

Initiative is a good thing.

 

[Imperioratorex Caprae]

Death solves nothing and leaves behind a mess for everyone else to clean up. If you're that selfish to think it would be better, then no words anyone here says will help you. If not, then read on:

Part 1:
Depression is a daily thing for me, I deal with it constantly by rationalizing my feelings. Do you have a VALID reason to be depressed at the moment? If the answer is no, then you know its nothing to really worry about and go watch a funny movie or something to take your mind off the irrational depression.
If yes then analyze the event that makes you feel like crap.
Ask yourself, can you do something about it at this point in time? (Suicide not an option)
If yes, then do it as long as it doesn't fuck you over and cause more depression.
If not, then find someone to vent to. There are plenty places you can go, or even phone #'s for anonymous calls to just talk your shit out. There are people who care about you even if they don't know you.

Part 2:
If this is a long running issue of being depressed, you may want to get some professional help. Maybe meds will help, maybe they won't, I can't attest to them working for me personally but I know people who have taken meds (prescription, not street) and gotten what they want out of it. Hell you may not even need meds just a therapist to talk to. Also don't be surprised if a therapist pisses you off by nailing your faults. They do that to get you to look at yourself.

Part 3:
Don't put stock in other people's view/opinion of you or how they treat you. At the risk of sounding like I'm giving egotistical advice, love yourself first and people will love you.

I won't give encouraging words, or tell you its going to be alright. I don't know you from Adam. But I will say that if you choose to make your life better despite how shitty life might treat you sometimes you will see a marked improvement in yourself and your life.
I only say this from personal experience.

 

[stutheninja]

i know how you feel, but you should really start to just say no to people. then you see if anyone really cares about you. if they don't, then that gives you the advantage of literally not having to care what anyone thinks of you, so you can pretty much do what you want. if someone does actually care about you, then you've got the great start to a friendship, either way you win man.

 

[Orwellian37]

Feels bad man.

Okay seriously. That seems like a terrible situation, but self-murder is NEVAR the answer. There's got to be something excellent in your life. Perhaps some bacon will solve this issue. it usually works for me.

 

[Bihac]

Firstly, some meditation... it's not a long term solution, but I find it helps to provide clarity of thought for a few moments at least.

Other advice would be... if you really can't talk to any of the people you've helped (due to them), don't bother assisting them in the future. If you can't really on the people you are carrying to carry you... don't carry them.

That said her response was... reasonable. Maybe not what she should have done, but don't hold it against her just yet. If she is coming to you as an ear, it means she's got problems of her own... and you should talk to someone who you know is relatively stable at the moment.

That's my advice at least, pick and choose as you like.

 

[Ickorus]

Man up, im always the friend and never the boyfriend even if the girl is closer to me than her boyfriend/s.

I live with it, i'll meet someone eventually who will love me for me and until that time i'll just be happy that im helping people.

I get depressed sometimes about being alone yet suicide has NEVER crossed my mind, some of you may have seen my post in another thread that had my opinion of suicide in it but if you didn't just know that it's not a good opinion of the people that do it or really consider it as an option.

 

[FirmartheTrilby]

Sooooo?

 

[Ziadaine_v1legacy]

See your local GP Specialist for starters. The sooner you reach out for help, the sooner you can help to get your life back on track. I would recommend looking into public gatherings like youth groups or something. Those places are a good place to check out when you notice you're friends like this. I know how you feel, women and my friends use me as an emotional tissue for their problems, forgetting I have a life also, which now I tell to "fuck off, im not a tissue for you all the time"

 

[Eumersian]

That does suck. I really don't know what else to say. My advice is to simply come to terms with it, make the best of what you have for now. Use that positive energy to make yourself a great person in another right. I guess that sounds kind of new-agey, but that's all I can think of.

I hate to see people suffering, even anonymously over the interwebz.

 

[2fish]

Talk to some advisor or doctor or something, the interwebz may know all but they do not always show you what you seek. Your info says you are a student you must have acsess to one of those.

Spoiler: trust me I'm a doctor