Insane Impulses

[Vern5]

One day I was driving down I-95 to Richmond in my truck. I'm cruising along at a good 78 mph, feeling the wind in my hair and waiting for my favorite radio station to fade away as I moved out of the area of its signal.

Suddenly, a thought occurs to me. If I were to time it just right, I could cut right through this little patch of trees and drive right into the opposite lane, right into incoming traffic. Sure, it would be a little daunting but traffic was sparse enough that I would have just enough time to weave through the first few cars. After that it would just be a matter of luck. Even if I did suddenly run out of space I could just veer the truck into the shoulder and narrowly avoid death. Then I would just need to outrun the cops who are surely nearby and -

The above thought took place for about 3 seconds before I snapped back to reality. I have thoughts like this all the time: tiny impulses that make me want to do outrageous and downright suicidal feats of daring. I've never followed up on any of them but they are constantly there.

Does anybody else gets these and, if so, what's the most recent one you remember?

 

[Hollyday]

Whenever I do the washing/drying up and there's a big knife I always have a daydream about trying to swing it down so hard that it sticks in the worktop excalibur stylee. Slightly more psychotically I occasionally wonder what it's be like to stab someone with it. That's my cue to move on to washing/drying the spoons. Way safer.

 

[staika]

I often think of how I could murder someone and get away with it. I go through it all in my head like who would be the perfect target, where to kill them, how to kill them, how to dispose of the body, what I can do to keep the cops off my back etc etc. I would never do it but it's a psychotic way to keep my mind occupied when I'm bored.

 

[DANEgerous]

Wow, all you violent people. I often just get the urge to drink absurd amount of tea or juice. like 2 quarts in around 15 minutes.

I have even gone to the doctor about this but he can find nothing wrong

Wait no I did have another I would burn every grade i got that was under a 70. They just made me pissed off to have so I would light them in fire an toss them in my schools ash trays or fire pit at my apartment's park

 

[Vern5]

I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING!

A few days ago I was at a bar in Richmond for a friend's birthday (she's a liar though; she just wanted to get drunk and it wasn't even close to her birthday) and I had wandered away from her little group.

A few drinks later I was chatting with some chick and trying to explain to her why her ex preferred to play Halo rather than spend time with her (the answer was "your ex is a douchebag" but I took my time explaining that). We were getting along fine and she was distracted with my jokes.

Then I thought, "I could punch this girl square in the jaw right now. It would knock her right off the barstool. Hell, she wouldn't even see it coming. Everyone would be so shocked and I could just walk out of this place like nothing happened." I even put my right arm up on the bar just so I might have it ready to knock her lights out. Thankfully, I didn't do it, but it was so tempting.

 

[The .50 Caliber Cow]

I really just want to punch any reporter I see in the face.

Haha! It's funny cause you're supposed to be Shepard!

OT: Well, I have to resist asking random people to get into my van

My knife needs more sharpening

Sometimes I just want to eat raw meat. Pork of course!


[sub][sub]Moo! [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9iIgQN5uZE][/sub][/sub]

 

[Kae]

Well whenever I see or hear something horrible like murder scenes, prostitution, rape, human trafficking, etc. it really gets to me and it keeps on the back of my mind, building up this strange feeling of impotence or guilt maybe, that I'm so well off and there are people that have it much worse, until I start having dreams and nightmares about it and the thought just remains there burning on the back of my mind, sometimes I forget about it and sometimes it remains there, until someone or somewhere triggers it and just out of nowhere I completely lose control and start doing stupid stuff like pulling a knife on a drug dealer and threaten to kill him, then again that was a really long time ago when I was 14 I believe, but it still happens just on November of last year I lost it again and was about to walk into a bar to start a fight with some people everybody around here knows are into people trafficking and prostitution, but fortunately a friend was with me and she stopped me from doing it, I just wanted to enter there and start hitting them, I didn't even have a plan but I really had an urge to do it, but she stopped me after a week I was all right again, but I'm afraid it's starting to happen again, ever since 2 weeks ago it's been there on the back of my mind again, I'm afraid I might lose it again so I'm avoiding any such places, kind off disappointing too, just last month ago I was so proud of myself because I thought I had finally outgrown this thing.

It's just that I want to do something but I don't know what and how, and it makes me sick when this stuff goes on around me and absolutely no one is doing anything to stop it, but I can't judge them it's not like I am doing something about it, and maybe I should because if I don't who else will? Does somebody else even care about this? It's just so frustrating.

 

[saoirse13]

I once had the urge to drive an iron poker into someones temple. I didn't though and I maybe should explain that it was someone that was in my yard trying to break into my house. I thought to myself "well it's kill or be killed" so my urge was logical.

I honestly don't think I could ever do anything like that just randomly. But I think if it was life or death or to protect my family then I could. Ha I'm not really this psychotic.

 

[Vern5]

Well whenever I see or hear something horrible like murder scenes, prostitution, rape, human trafficking, etc. it really gets to me and it keeps on the back of my mind, building up this strange feeling of impotence or guilt maybe, that I'm so well off and there are people that have it much worse, until I start having dreams and nightmares about it and the thought just remains there burning on the back of my mind, sometimes I forget about it and sometimes it remains there, until someone or somewhere triggers it and just out of nowhere I completely lose control and start doing stupid stuff like pulling a knife on a drug dealer and threaten to kill him, then again that was a really long time ago when I was 14 I believe, but it still happens just on November of last year I lost it again and was about to walk into a bar to start a fight with some people everybody around here knows are into people trafficking and prostitution, but fortunately a friend was with me and she stopped me from doing it, I just wanted to enter there and start hitting them, I didn't even have a plan but I really had an urge to do it, but she stopped me after a week I was all right again, but I'm afraid it's starting to happen again, ever since 2 weeks ago it's been there on the back of my mind again, I'm afraid I might lose it again so I'm avoiding any such places, kind off disappointing too, just last month ago I was so proud of myself because I thought I had finally outgrown this thing.

It's just that I want to do something but I don't know what and how, and it makes me sick when this stuff goes on around me and absolutely no one is doing anything to stop it, but I can't judge them it's not like I am doing something about it, and maybe I should because if I don't who else will? Does somebody else even care about this? It's just so frustrating.

Damn... I wish I still cared about other human beings like that.

 

[Kae]

I don't go around a lot, and I'm not liable to frequent any places where I might see anything of that sort going on, but if I did I can totally understand why you'd feel sick seeing that go around unopposed. But in the end... if you do something like start fights and so on it won't really fix anything. You can't really do anything about it on your own. You can try by starting fights and stuff, but it won't actually accomplish what you'd want... Even though it's frustrating you can really only lose there if you do something =/

Yeah, I know it's a bad idea and it's not like I do it on purpose, I mostly get so angry that I lose control and just have to do something, the easiest thing to do when you're angry tends to be punching, but I'm aware that getting in fights is more likely to cause more trouble than it solves, that's why I try to avoid it.

Be the hero your city deserves... though it may not be the one they need

Heh, no I don't really want to be a super hero, though if I was I'd make a really crappy one, as I said my friend was able to stop me and she's half my size, she's not really strong at all, so I doubt I could catch anyone, they'd probably just slightly push me and I'd fall over.

Damn... I wish I still cared about other human beings like that.

I'll take that as a compliment, but really it's not that great, I get guilt from not giving change to a homeless guy, so yeah I may be a little excessive, but I do find it a little depressing that most people don't really care, but to be fair when I lived in Tijuana I almost stopped caring just because of how common it was, I mean not a day went by without something awful happening, so I can understand why people don't care, besides getting so upset over something that's not even you're problem may be a little unhealthy.

 

[Esotera]

I get little things like climbing onto the top of garages, or just walking on walls/on higher ground, which I'll generally follow through with as it's quite fun and doesn't really hurt anyone. I also have a really bad impulse that keeps telling me to cycle to the top of a tor on Dartmoor, and just offroad it the entire way down back to my house...probably going to wait until a new bike before I even attempt that.

 

[Starik20X6]

Sometimes when I'm with my best friend I get an almost irresistible urge to kiss her. The only thing that stops me is my respecting her current relationship. There's a lot of U.S.T. between me and her...

 

[kouriichi]

I saw this really tasty looking glass once.

Long story short, glass taste like blood, and if your seeing blue, the doctor is the first place you should go, not the zoo.

 

[370999]

I always wanted to smash my car into a wall at high speeds. Just to see what it's like.

 

[Supertegwyn]

When I go to the top of high bridges, I have this urge to just swan dive off.

I'm not suicidal, just the rush of falling..........

 

[Secret world leader (shhh)]

Whenever i'm on a balcony/ at a rail high above the ground, i get the urge to jump off. There's no reason behind it at all. I don't know what i'd achieve out of doing so, i'll just look down and start visualising myself climbing over and jumping off.

 

[SquirePB]

I remember a few years ago I was standing at the top of a cliff that the locals called "The 11 second drop" or something along those lines. My toes were about an inch or two from the edge and I was looking straight down wondering if it would really take 11 seconds for me to hit the bottom if I jumped and there was this little nagging voice in the back of my head saying "you should definitely do it just to see". After a few seconds I came to my senses and was like "Holy crap why was I even considering that?".
I regularly get the urge to punch people for various reasons but I like to think that's not too abnormal... especially when they deserve it and the only thing stopping me is it isn't "socially acceptable".

 

[Kae]

Ah I see. Well I do hope you manage to not lose control in the future, sounds like it could get pretty dangerous for you.

Ha, thanks for caring, it's all right as I said I've been working on it and though I may be failing a little right now, last month I did really well considering everything that happened, I guess it takes time but progress is being made.

It may not be so helpful to you, but I do think it's a sign you're a good person that you care about the problems of others.

Thanks for the compliment, it's always nice to hear those, and yeah I guess it's always nice but like everything in excess it's most likely bad for you, but I can't say it's a quality I dislike about myself, I won't lie it kinda makes me think I'm awesome...

Very rarely I have these incredibly strong urges to do something really insane. Like, once every 2 months, and for one second. Something like jumping off a high bridge (with water below it and for fun, obviously, not to kill myself), punching a random stranger in the face or flying to a random city with nothing but the clothes I'm wearing.

Yeah, I'm a bit fucked up, but only a bit. A second later the urge is gone and I never follow through with any of these "plans".

To be fair the last one doesn't sound so bad, in fact it sounds like it might lead to a lot of fun if you actually do it.

When I go to the top of high bridges, I have this urge to just swan dive off.

I'm not suicidal, just the rush of falling..........

Just wondering, have you tried bungee jumping? It sounds like something you would enjoy.

 

[DanielBrown]

I used to get impulses to kill people. Don't think I've had them since I started eating happy pills though.

What? I'm sane!
Please, come closer.

 

[Supertegwyn]

Ah I see. Well I do hope you manage to not lose control in the future, sounds like it could get pretty dangerous for you.

Ha, thanks for caring, it's all right as I said I've been working on it and though I may be failing a little right now, last month I did really well considering everything that happened, I guess it takes time but progress is being made.

It may not be so helpful to you, but I do think it's a sign you're a good person that you care about the problems of others.

Thanks for the compliment, it's always nice to hear those, and yeah I guess it's always nice but like everything in excess it's most likely bad for you, but I can't say it's a quality I dislike about myself, I won't lie it kinda makes me think I'm awesome...

Very rarely I have these incredibly strong urges to do something really insane. Like, once every 2 months, and for one second. Something like jumping off a high bridge (with water below it and for fun, obviously, not to kill myself), punching a random stranger in the face or flying to a random city with nothing but the clothes I'm wearing.

Yeah, I'm a bit fucked up, but only a bit. A second later the urge is gone and I never follow through with any of these "plans".

To be fair the last one doesn't sound so bad, in fact it sounds like it might lead to a lot of fun if you actually do it.

When I go to the top of high bridges, I have this urge to just swan dive off.

I'm not suicidal, just the rush of falling..........

Just wondering, have you tried bungee jumping? It sounds like something you would enjoy.

I do a bit of abseiling, and I may have to do some skydiving for my job, but I have never seen the appeal of Bungee Jumping.

Why jump if you aren't going to reach the bottom?