Is there something wrong with me?

[Snoozer]

Again: there is apparently a sizable portion of the population who simply doesn't grieve. That is not indicative of poor relationships or coldness, it's simply the way they react.

I guess but I still feel like the biggest asshole in the world for forgetting about her, but thank you, seriously thank you I never thought that I could find out so much about myself by asking random people on the internet, thank you for making me remember her, that's all I can say right now.

Random people on the internet have the advantage to be anonymous.
I had a situation years ago, when my grandparent, great granmother, great aunt and other relatives died in around two years. It became somewhat of a routine and it just wasn't possible grieve every time. I never blamed myself, because I wasn't the only one and because I had to carry on somehow. I think I just got used to it and I don't grieve that much ever since.
If relatives die, you will forget about them. It's a natural mechanism that helps you to continue. You will remember them again at times, but it's normal to forget about them - even for years.

 

[Randomperson9999999]

everyone reacts differently there is nothing wrong with you

 

[Kyogissun]

Everyone handles grief differently dude. I go into a nervous and uncomfortable mild laughter, we've all got our awkward ways of responding.

 

[James Joseph Emerald]

I really don't know what to say I must really be an insensitive bastard I mean who forgets about the only person that was important to you that died? She was the only person I cared about that died and I didn't even care that she died, wow I suck.

You're over-exaggerating. Like others have said, initial numbness is very common when something big happens and you're not sure how to cope. My brother -- who's my best friend -- had a violent psychotic break and was involuntarily committed to a psychiatric hospital. It was tough, because I spent months not knowing if he'd ever come out again, but aside from that fear at the back of my mind, everything was pretty much normal.

Movies and TV make us think there has to be some climactic, melodramatic scene that resolves all our problems. But really, trauma just leaves more of a constant emptiness that numbs your soul. But it goes away after a while.

 

[i7omahawki]

Don't worry, that's shock. You aren't a bad person or anything, your body has just shut down certain chemicals to help you not go insane.

Agreed, it sounds a lot like shock.

The very fact that you're concerned about your feelings shows you're not a robot or anything, and there most definitely isn't a right way to grieve. There are better and worse ways, but no single answer for everyone.

I hope your dad gets better dude, and I hope you don't have to grieve for now.

 

[Kae]

You're over-exaggerating. Like others have said, initial numbness is very common when something big happens and you're not sure how to cope. My brother -- who's my best friend -- had a violent psychotic break and was involuntarily committed to a psychiatric hospital. It was tough, because I spent months not knowing if he'd ever come out again, but aside from that fear at the back of my mind, everything was pretty much normal.

Movies and TV make us think there has to be some climactic, melodramatic scene that resolves all our problems. But really, trauma just leaves more of a constant emptiness that numbs your soul. But it goes away after a while.

Yeah that was just the initial shock of realizing I had forgotten I'm better now, I don't feel too bad about it anymore, I mean I still feel kinda guilty I forgot but nothing to lose my sleep over, in fact I'm fine now I was just feeling inhuman due to my lack of reaction since a lot of people do tell me I'm like a robot with no feelings and for some reason it really gets me when I feel like I might not be having a proper human reaction, besides when I was growing up the other kids always used to tease me by saying that I was crazy and that they were going to lock me up on a mental institution, so whenever I think I might not be acting human it crosses my mind that maybe I have some sort of weird mental illness, I know kinda silly but I can't seem to get it out of my head, also I think that's the reason why I'm afraid of psychologists.

 

[Sonicron]

Everyone handles these situations differently. Some people wear their hearts on their sleeves, others wall it up (not necessarily consciously). When my mum died back in '05, I didn't shed a single tear; sure, it affected me quite deeply, but instead of grieving openly I kept myself busy with all kinds of work and got the sadness and frustration out of my system that way.
Point is, don't beat yourself up because you're not acting like you feel you should; I don't think there's anything wrong with you.