Uhh...I have ADHD and Asperger's
...can't concentrate on things I have no interest in, and it's often hard to think of ideas. I either have one immediately or it never comes to me. As a result I was never good in English when writing because the assignments were always too vague for me to get a good idea in my head.
I often don't hold eye contact since I'm unsure of how much is too much.
I try to avoid conversations I find meaningless, am against getting help since I think that gives me an advantage, and feel awkward interacting with people at cashiers.
I have very few interests, that make my life very monotonous and solitary since most of them I prefer enjoying alone. Having few interests makes it all the more sad when a more well rounded person is better than you at it. Makes it feel like everything's pointless.
I negatively judge highly emotional people since I mostly understand cold logic.
I pick up terminology easy and like applying what I learn, so throughout my school life have had a higher vocabulary than most people, and was proud thta I could spell everything I said. I can't now, and it has kind of slowed down, but people often think I'm needlessly showing off when my initial thought of something is filled with more complex words. This mostly comes out in typing when I have time to think rather than real time on the fly. I guess my mind is just pretentious. People would mock me, saying I must read dictionaries, which I always found weird because surely a thesaurus would be better suited to increase vocabulary.
I'm smart, but my mind is not suited to academia, so I was always smart enough to be mocked, but never enough to be rewarded.
Exams are just tests of how much you can remember in an hour or so. In real life you're allowed to look things up.
I'm bad at representing my ideas. I can get a good train of thought, but if I try to write or voice it down afterwards or as I go, it just slows the speed I write or speak, and I forget words I require and it just fails.
This is especially annoying in the case of art, since I can have wonderful visions in my head, and am unable to replicate them due to lack of abiltiy to picture how to do it. Ending with horribly sketched 2D drawings. That combined with my logical inclination makes me feel uncreative since I can't express it, and even though I'm taking a dual course on design and programming, makes me think I'll always be a programmer, when I'd rather be able to do everything. It makes me feel like I have no talent beyond simple human reasoning.
I also apparently don't get jokes sometimes, but that's mostly exaggerated from me telling people that, then they think it's my disability whenver I just didn't notice. Which is funny, because apparently whenever I make a joke when speaking, it's so subtle that I should probably consider being an actor, since people seem to take me seriously when I say it.
I'm good at reading, but can't enjoy fiction, because I lack the required imagiantion to apply an image to someone else's design without significant description. The only book I've bought and read by choice was a light novel prequel to a franchise 'm already infested in, and even then I only managed to complete it since I was caught up in the puzzles, and there were very few characters and location descriptions weren't required, so it made it easy to focus.
I find it annoying to bring up sometimes, but it's one of the few interesting things about me. But people then attribute anything slightly off to the disabiltiy and then I think they think less of me as a functioning person. I also dislike bringing it up to people because I seem to be rather tame in comparison to other people I know. They seem to be at a stage I was in primary school, which implies over-diagnosis by professionals, that I may not have it, but there's enoguh weird about it that I can comfirm it for myself. One way I can always tell when someone has Asperger's is because they don't seem to understand comedic context, and so through somekind of nervousness, will parrot things they find funny when they feel like making a joke.
I also have glasses, but that's unimportant.
I think I have a partially dislocated shoulder, which may cause pain if I had some sort of sports accident. Good thing I'm not sporty. Whenever I rotate it, it clicks.
