I just saw James' Game Compulsion speech [http://penny-arcade.com/patv/episode/game-addiction-pt.2], and I have to say, I've been in a very similar situation all my life. I went to a private school till 6th grade and a different one 7th-9th. I haven't had a friend on my street for at least 10 years, and I was never outgoing enough to try to go to other people's houses (it's not that I was shy, I didn't have the mentality). Till 6th grade, I was compelled to watch TV, even when nothing was on. I got out of that in my second school, where I basically only played video games (till then I had practically only played BFME, Rome: Total War, Pokemon, and SWBFII - mostly in 5th and 6th grade). Three years after 9th grade, I spend a huge chunk of my free time on the Internet. Over the past 12 hours, I was on about 3 forums and watched 2-3 hours of videos. I think that amounts to me doing stuff for 6 hours - I spent a lot of time just clicking on bookmarks being bored.
Basically, I've been really damn confused and socially awkward my whole life, and it seems I need help. Right now, I'm in theater and have been going to a few parties, but like I said, 12 hours of doing nothing. Internet compulsion seems far worse than gaming compulsion because I was actually doing stuff then. There's a girl I kinda like who might be able to help, but she lives about 30 minutes away and I'm bad at knowing what to do. I don't really need advice on that, though, I'll think of something: I'd like to know if anyone has any suggestions as to what else I can do. Today, I came to realize my willpower sucks... and that I can't write a coherent and well-flowing paragraph unless it's for school. Stupid Batman logic.
Basically, I've been really damn confused and socially awkward my whole life, and it seems I need help. Right now, I'm in theater and have been going to a few parties, but like I said, 12 hours of doing nothing. Internet compulsion seems far worse than gaming compulsion because I was actually doing stuff then. There's a girl I kinda like who might be able to help, but she lives about 30 minutes away and I'm bad at knowing what to do. I don't really need advice on that, though, I'll think of something: I'd like to know if anyone has any suggestions as to what else I can do. Today, I came to realize my willpower sucks... and that I can't write a coherent and well-flowing paragraph unless it's for school. Stupid Batman logic.