I like my personal time and space, which is good since my campus apartment roommate just up and left, so I have the whole apartment to myself. It wouldn't have mattered if I wanted to talk about anything anyway, cause he was from Turkey and spoke little to no English, so anytime we saw each other in the apartment, we just nodded or said hey.
Though I do find myself longing to find a girlfriend. I'm not very social, since I have social anxiety disorder, basically interacting with people I don't know scares the crap out of me. So, I really have only pursued a handful of girls. Way back when I was in high school I had crushes on three different girls, but back then I was really messed up, I was the creepy guy that instead of talking with the girl I was interested in, I would just give them gifts like poems and candy.(Seriously, looking back now, I am horrified by how creepy I was.)
Now, over the six slow agonizing years I have been in college(I'm becoming part of the statistic that says the average student takes 7 years to get a 4 year degree.), I gotten to know several girls. My tactics are as follows, relate to them about things in class like, "Our professor is insane, or you forgot about that assignment, me too", the it progresses to relating to interests outside of class while we are in class.(That is as far as I get.) When I start relating with them about stuff outside of class, she usually adds something about how her boyfriend has had stuff happen to him like that or whatever, or something or I overhear her talking to a girl next to her about how she is going to be getting married in a few months.
Girls don't tend to talk to me unless they need something, like a pen or wanting to know when an assignment is due. A few weeks ago I was rushing to class because I had overslept and got up 14 minutes before class started and it takes 14 minutes to get to get to that class walking at a normal pace, well when I was rushing to class I heard a girl say hey behind me. I of course didn't respond at first because as I said before girls don't talk to me, well when this girl got next to me I recognized that she was a girl that I sat next to in the class I was late for. She wanted to ask me if I thought that the professor was going to count us late. I reassured her that I remembered our professor saying that she wouldn't count people late if they were only 5 minutes late, so we had a buffer. Then the girl and I related how our professor was crazy. As you might understand, I was doing a dance inside that a girl was actually talking to me, but then she pointed out that I was wearing a Full Tilt Poker hat, to which she asked if I played poker at that site(I actually don't, I just won the hat in a poker tournament. I play on other sites.) I mention that, but then she said that, "oh yeah, my boyfriend plays at those sites too." Then of course for the rest of the rushed walk to class, I was yelling "Noooo!!!" in my head, not really paying attention to anything she said anymore. Girls that point out that they are in relationships, tend to become invisible to me after I find that information out, for that not to happen, we would have had to become relative good friends before that.
I can't believe I typed all that, hmm. It's probably a side effect of not communicating much out in the real world and being more comfortable talking in forums. Yeah! I get to bore people that can't resist reading everything in a thread.
