I am what I have termed "a Sociopath with a Conscience." Very oxymoronic right?
This is how it works... I play Video games the way I wish I could in real life. Examples from KotOR II:
I steal some stuff from a guys closet. He barges in and yells at me for stealing, and threatens to call security. I cut him in half and laugh at him while doing it.
Atton asks what just happened. He just found himself killing right beside me, for no reason he could distinguish. I tell him to go with the flow, he agrees, a merry laugh is had by all.
Would I act like that in real life? Only if I knew I could get away with it...
Thus, I know it is wrong to kill, but if I knew I could get away with it, I would do it.
Real life situation:
My ex-wife is a lying, conniving *****, who has done everything in her power to ruin my life, and taken my daughter away from me. Would I kill her if I knew no one would ever find out, and take my daughter back? Yes. Will I? No, because I know I can't get away with it... And partly because I do still have feelings for her... Damn my emotions.
Now, if I could start a war and send nameless faceless people off to die for my cause, which most of them don't believe in, would I? In a second. Why? Because I was playing Empire at War today and I realized something. Nothing is as fun to watch as two nameless, faceless groups killing each other, as long as they don't wreck my Beautiful Star Destroyers while doing it.
So the oppurtunity to say horrible things to people appeals to me, much more than just silently bashing their ugly faces in ever will.