Well, i never thought i'd turn to strangers for personal advice, but here i am.
I essentially will have to decide if i keep my current job or venture into the great unknown. But let me explain.
So yeah, just yesterday, i completed my apprenticeship/training/whatever-it's-called-in-your-country to become a programmer (specifically, a programmer for web applications).
Three months earlier: Given that my apprenticeship/training/whatever-employment ends with graduating, i asked my boss about whether i could become a regular employee in my current company.
He essentially said i shouldn't get my hopes up, and i was actually relieved about it.
You see, in the 3 years i worked at that place, i've grown unsatisfied with the job for reasons regarding the company i work in. I won't go into details for now. As such, i ended up thinking "Alright then, i search a new place to work, make it my new place to live (i still live at my parents because i couldn't afford an apartment with my pay), and essentially start a new life (i'm kinda depressed right now)"
One week earlier: My efforts to find a new job weren't successful yet. In the last three months the two co-workers in my department grown equally unsatisfied with thier jobs at that company, with one quitting and the other one searching "secretly" for a new job, but taking his time with it.
I knew finding a new job may take more time (especially given that most job offers are for people with more "working experience", meaning people with a history that goes beyond the years of training), and since i need the money, i somewhat reluctantly asked my boss again about further employment.
This time, he agreed that, since i did not find something new, he would keep me employed for my current wage (not much) for at least two months until i found something new.
Very much a better than nothing deal.
Today: As my "job-searching" Co-Worker told me, he spoke to my boss about me and pretty much advertised that i might be worth to be kept inside the company permanently, and, as far as he told me, it's likely that next monday, i will be offered a full employment, making the whole thing much more complicated in a well-meaning way.
So there i am and have to make up my mind about whether i should refuse, keeping things as they are in hopes to find a new job, or accept the eventual offer, earning better money and a bit of safety.
To further elaborate the problem, the pros and cons of agreeing a full employment:
Pro:
- I will have a definite job for the time being and earn more money than i used to.
- My employment at the company i was trained in would reflect positively on my overall carrer should i find a new job.
- It may be unsatisfying, but at least a relatively relaxed job.
- And if i stayed for a while, i'd earn this so called "working experience"
- There is no guarantee that i will find a new job in the next few months, and no guarantee that it will actually be a better job.
- I could still try to find a new job regardless.
Contra:
- ...however, finding a new job would be more complicated since i'd have cancellation period, also i'd feel bad to quit a month or two after agreeing on it.
- The pay will probably still be not as good as in other companies.
- I'm unsatisfied with my job.
- Although i earn "working experience", i probably won't gain more knowledge to qualify for more attractive job offers.
- When my co-workers quit (as they plan to), i'm pretty much on my own and probably won't be able keep up with the incoming work load.
- I know myself well enough to know that my plans to "sort my life out" are cancelled as long as i work there, and i will most likely continue to live as i do right know, depression and all.
- Don't know how much that counts, but by boss does not seem to know me enough to get my name right, Homer Simpson Style.
The pro-arguments should make it obvious that i should use the opportunity, but i know i will not find satisfaction nor happiness when things stay the way they are.
So, what do you think, should i stay resonable and use the opportunity given to me, or should i rather go down an uncertain road that may lead me to a more satisfying life right now?
I essentially will have to decide if i keep my current job or venture into the great unknown. But let me explain.
So yeah, just yesterday, i completed my apprenticeship/training/whatever-it's-called-in-your-country to become a programmer (specifically, a programmer for web applications).
Three months earlier: Given that my apprenticeship/training/whatever-employment ends with graduating, i asked my boss about whether i could become a regular employee in my current company.
He essentially said i shouldn't get my hopes up, and i was actually relieved about it.
You see, in the 3 years i worked at that place, i've grown unsatisfied with the job for reasons regarding the company i work in. I won't go into details for now. As such, i ended up thinking "Alright then, i search a new place to work, make it my new place to live (i still live at my parents because i couldn't afford an apartment with my pay), and essentially start a new life (i'm kinda depressed right now)"
One week earlier: My efforts to find a new job weren't successful yet. In the last three months the two co-workers in my department grown equally unsatisfied with thier jobs at that company, with one quitting and the other one searching "secretly" for a new job, but taking his time with it.
I knew finding a new job may take more time (especially given that most job offers are for people with more "working experience", meaning people with a history that goes beyond the years of training), and since i need the money, i somewhat reluctantly asked my boss again about further employment.
This time, he agreed that, since i did not find something new, he would keep me employed for my current wage (not much) for at least two months until i found something new.
Very much a better than nothing deal.
Today: As my "job-searching" Co-Worker told me, he spoke to my boss about me and pretty much advertised that i might be worth to be kept inside the company permanently, and, as far as he told me, it's likely that next monday, i will be offered a full employment, making the whole thing much more complicated in a well-meaning way.
So there i am and have to make up my mind about whether i should refuse, keeping things as they are in hopes to find a new job, or accept the eventual offer, earning better money and a bit of safety.
To further elaborate the problem, the pros and cons of agreeing a full employment:
Pro:
- I will have a definite job for the time being and earn more money than i used to.
- My employment at the company i was trained in would reflect positively on my overall carrer should i find a new job.
- It may be unsatisfying, but at least a relatively relaxed job.
- And if i stayed for a while, i'd earn this so called "working experience"
- There is no guarantee that i will find a new job in the next few months, and no guarantee that it will actually be a better job.
- I could still try to find a new job regardless.
Contra:
- ...however, finding a new job would be more complicated since i'd have cancellation period, also i'd feel bad to quit a month or two after agreeing on it.
- The pay will probably still be not as good as in other companies.
- I'm unsatisfied with my job.
- Although i earn "working experience", i probably won't gain more knowledge to qualify for more attractive job offers.
- When my co-workers quit (as they plan to), i'm pretty much on my own and probably won't be able keep up with the incoming work load.
- I know myself well enough to know that my plans to "sort my life out" are cancelled as long as i work there, and i will most likely continue to live as i do right know, depression and all.
- Don't know how much that counts, but by boss does not seem to know me enough to get my name right, Homer Simpson Style.
The pro-arguments should make it obvious that i should use the opportunity, but i know i will not find satisfaction nor happiness when things stay the way they are.
So, what do you think, should i stay resonable and use the opportunity given to me, or should i rather go down an uncertain road that may lead me to a more satisfying life right now?
