I attacked my bullies at the end of year six and was excluded from junior school for doing so. Bearing in mind that I was physically attacked on an almost daily basis for two years without repercussion to them. It is true that my attack was more violent and the physical marks more severe than any conducted against me in the past, but it reflected the corrosive effect of two years of abuse and I believe allowances should have been made.
That being said, I'm a very violent man today and I wouldn't want be any other way. Allowances and counselling might have corrupted what was happening to me, so I'm somewhat glad that they weren't made.
I won't go as far as to say I owe it to those guys, but it's true that before I snapped, I had no access to my violence whatsoever. Having no access to violence used to make me feel emasculated and worthless, even at 8 and 9 years old. I'm only able to feel good about who I am now because I've got the mix of courage and savagery necessary to fight with perfect mental and physical agility- no shaking, no hesitation- and the temperance to do it only when it's the right thing to do; and I doubt I'd have developed the former without the bullies.
So... what can I say. I'll head back on topic and just say no, I never bullied anyone. I pursued, ambushed and attacked several of my bullies on dozens of occasions throughout my exclusion, and then on into secondary school, but I say the retributive nature of the attacks make them distinct from bullying-- and as the injured party, my opinion is really the only one that is valid and the only one I give a fuck about. No offence.
