I kind of think the same way. I think suicide is the "weak way out", and personally, even though I sometimes may feel a bit depressed (and that only happens if I'm sick, and don't go out at all on those days, then I just feel so lonely that I get depressed a bit), I've never, EVER thought of commiting suicide. Even though my life has been a smorgasbord of shit-flinging into my face (believe me, my mum has tried to commit suicide, and tried to take me with her, which has lead to many, many years of driftin from orphanage to orphanage, from foster family to foster family, and I'm in one currently, but at least a more secure one, and I'm actually really happy that she didn't succeed, and went to prison, because she has actually much improved), I always look at things from an optimistic angle, and I always have my friends, the IRC, and these forums, and generally the internet, to keep me from thinking about the generally pretty depressing family life that I have (which has lead me to looking forward to growing up and going to live somewhere else, which I've actually already talked about with one of my best friends).
But even though I may look forward to it, and wait for it eagerly (especially having taken the approach of one other user in this thread, the "Fuck it" method, and not worrying about what financial problems that period may bring), I'm still trying to remain as optimistic with what I've got, as I can, and generally, I've succeeded.
Also, I am writing a novel of sort, just because I like writing, and coupled with posting on the IRC and this forum, it's a great way to distract myself from problems I have, and it does kid of make one feel better.
