Reet72 said:
Mortai Gravesend said:
Reet72 said:
Mortai Gravesend said:
Why do I have such a hard time finding motivation to do *anything*? I have the ability, yet I lack the will to make myself do it. I know what to do, but I will let the littlest things distract me and tell myself "Another time". People tell me I'm smart and when I apply myself I can do things, but...
This thread will become a journal of my complaints that I have nowhere else to put... At least while I'm sitting here thinking too much about what I do wrong instead of fixing it. Putting off the fixing for another time, because 12 AM isn't the time for it. But then, when do I ever find the time for fixing my bad habits? -__-
Wierd. I have the exact same problem. It's like no matter what I'm supposed to do, not doing is just a way more appealing option. Every time.
Geuss I'm just lazy.
It's funny cause its entirely self perpetuating. I'm lazy so I can't be bothered to do anything including getting myself motivated because I'm lazy. I think this is what they meant by a vicious circle.
I find it gets all the more vicious when my failures make me want to forget them. And how do I forget? More procrastination, trying to forget the whole issue altogether even if it's still salvageable. When I stop and notice I panic and want to just do something else.
It's actually not AS bad as it sounds, I avoid it some. But I'm tired and more prone to being dramatic.
I know exactly how that feels. You're not like secretly spying on me or something are you? It's uncanny. Maybe its more common than I thought. I don't know that thats better but...
The problem is that as much as I might to try to ignore it, its never going to fix itself. And what makes it worse is I know that. But that just makes me want to ignore it even more.
In one sense it's kind of nice to hear I'm not alone. In another sense I'm sorry to hear you've got to deal with the same unfortunate mentality and instincts that I have when it comes to these things XP
But yeah, you've described my feelings on it as well quite perfectly. And the thing is... so many times I wish for a reset button to try again, but I realize that I keep taking fresh opportunities and making the same mess. So if I had my desired reset button, would I do any better? Or would I waste my time again? I'm sorry to think it'll be the latter. Really need to try to deal with this. Like tomorrow. I really should try tomorrow because I'm always putting it off if I can.