Since Postal II I've always played the good guy in games. It matured me, painfully. I spread some painful firey death and destruction, on a circus, thinking 'me having fun'. I looked back and realised that no, I wasn't having fun, I was feeling physically sick. This just wasn't right. I even thought that maybe the anti-game lobby had some valid points. So no more Postal for me, and any giggles at brutal deaths in GTA results in going for a walk in the park with my girlfriend.