My last thread got semi-ignored, so I'll try to see if rephrasing myself will net better and more responses. 
I currently go to a community college. I dropped my calculus and physics courses this quarter since I didn't study enough and was left behind in lectures. I'm planning on changing this bad habit of not studying by going to the library instead of studying at home. I'm anxious that this might not work, and I'm pressured by my parents to do well.
I've always studied to avoid getting beat up by my parents. Now that I'm more than two decades old, that method doesn't work anymore (I learned aikido, karate, and boxing as a counter-measure against school bullies back in the days). Now I try to study for my own sake, but I fear failure and never reaped the benefits of hard work in academics as well as sports due to various reasons both personal and political.
I currently go to a community college. I dropped my calculus and physics courses this quarter since I didn't study enough and was left behind in lectures. I'm planning on changing this bad habit of not studying by going to the library instead of studying at home. I'm anxious that this might not work, and I'm pressured by my parents to do well.
I've always studied to avoid getting beat up by my parents. Now that I'm more than two decades old, that method doesn't work anymore (I learned aikido, karate, and boxing as a counter-measure against school bullies back in the days). Now I try to study for my own sake, but I fear failure and never reaped the benefits of hard work in academics as well as sports due to various reasons both personal and political.