I?ve been a long time sufferer of sleep paralysis [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis]. If you can?t be bothered to click the link, it?s basically when in the process of waking up, you regain consciousness and cognitive ability before motor functions leaving you momentarily and unexpectedly paralyzed. It often results in auditory/visual hallucinations as your brain tries to make sense of the feeling of being trapped, vulnerable and in danger despite the lack of any objective threat to the conscious mind, so it makes some shit up. It doesn?t happen to me often, maybe a couple dozen times a year, but it is terrifying every time; I find myself simply shutting my eyes and waiting out the ?wild animal that has jumped on my bed and is vigorously sniffing my neck and face and growling? or the ?shadowy intruder kneeling by my bed whispering threats and hate speech an inch from my face.? These moment last maybe a minute, but they feel like forever, particularly when instead of snapping to, I find myself falling back to sleep; I struggle to keep conscious for genuine fear of falling asleep with the hallucinations still in my room.
Lately, I?ve come to terms with my sleep paralysis and have even tried to maintain a clinical curiosity about it, challenging the hallucinations despite my brain setting off every klaxon at its disposal as it realizes neither fight nor flight is an option, so my brain decided to mix up its fuckery with a new issue: false awakenings [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_awakening]. This has been both annoying and somewhat silly, both better than terrifying. It?s just what it sounds like, a person gets up and performs several mundane, morning tasks? without ever waking up or getting out of bed. I?m a big fan of dreams that are fantastical, outrageous and fun to recall or read into, but these dreams are the antithesis of that. I ?wake up? in my bed, get up into my room, brush my teeth and take a shower in my bathroom, etc. all without ever doing any of those things. I made it to MY car to go to work once before waking up! It?s basically sleep walking without the walking. The other day, my girlfriend sent my a clearly annoyed ?good morning? text around noon only for me to realize my morning ritual of texting her ?good morning? when I wake up had actually never happened. Recently, I woke up while she was getting ready for work and had a full conversation with her about who was picking up her son after school that afternoon? yeah, never happened. This stuff is happening quite often, multiple times a week, sometimes multiple times in the same morning.
The mind is a funny thing. Anyone else have experience with these or other sleep disorders?
Lately, I?ve come to terms with my sleep paralysis and have even tried to maintain a clinical curiosity about it, challenging the hallucinations despite my brain setting off every klaxon at its disposal as it realizes neither fight nor flight is an option, so my brain decided to mix up its fuckery with a new issue: false awakenings [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_awakening]. This has been both annoying and somewhat silly, both better than terrifying. It?s just what it sounds like, a person gets up and performs several mundane, morning tasks? without ever waking up or getting out of bed. I?m a big fan of dreams that are fantastical, outrageous and fun to recall or read into, but these dreams are the antithesis of that. I ?wake up? in my bed, get up into my room, brush my teeth and take a shower in my bathroom, etc. all without ever doing any of those things. I made it to MY car to go to work once before waking up! It?s basically sleep walking without the walking. The other day, my girlfriend sent my a clearly annoyed ?good morning? text around noon only for me to realize my morning ritual of texting her ?good morning? when I wake up had actually never happened. Recently, I woke up while she was getting ready for work and had a full conversation with her about who was picking up her son after school that afternoon? yeah, never happened. This stuff is happening quite often, multiple times a week, sometimes multiple times in the same morning.
The mind is a funny thing. Anyone else have experience with these or other sleep disorders?