So life has me down

[x434343]

Hey, all. Figured I could post this here since you guys don't know me in real life.

I need to break down, vent, let it out. I'm feeling down.

For one, I'm losing my sense of friendship. I'm going to be going to college in a year, graduating high school in 9 months. I'm going to lose a huge block of friends.

Not only that, I'm leaving very lofty, very rewarding positions as Stage Manager and leader of an improv troupe. What's worse, I feel that my guidance of my replacement for the improv troupe is slipping. Basically, people treat her as a sex object and not a person, and when I tell them to stop disrespecting her, they tell me to fuck off.

How will I be remembered? During improv practice, somebody took the suggestion on 'World's Worst Dictator' and used it to copy everything I did. So basically, I'm a dictator that is simply insulting everyone.

What's worse, I was told that the reason girls don't like me at all is because I'm not "huggable" as one put it. I'm not attractive, adorable, huggable. I'm not shit to women.

To top it off, I've been looking at my Facebook friend's list for 2 hours. Waiting for the ONE PERSON who I can trust to come on. They haven't been on.

I don't know what much to do. Any thoughts?

 

[Jfswift]

I've had to move before and start over. I know it's hard to lose friends, and to make new ones. All I can say is that you will make new contacts, possibly better ones than you had before. Just to stay positive (as lame as that sounds I mean it). Also, I don't really think i'd miss an improv group like that if they're so disrespectful toward people.

 

[ayuri]

I actually can relate, sometimes graduation is not and end but a chance to begin anew. I'm sure you will have a lot of fun in college if you just be open and social.

and now a happy song
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[SimuLord]

Considering all the stupid drama your high school "friends" are putting up, college sounds like it will be a real eye-opener. Mark my words. This time next year you will be wondering why the fuck you thought high school was worth your mental energy wasted on worrying about it.

As for becoming more "huggable", what do they want you to do? Gain weight so you can be a big teddy bear? On the bright side, guys don't have to get outright fat for women to consider them cuddly. You can be in the healthy weight range (BMI just below 25) and still be soft and snuggle-able. Though more likely I think you're just dealing with prissy little high school girls who need to get fucked and chucked a few times and lose the princess complex.

 

[DesiPrinceX09]

High school sucks, college rocks. But anyways I guess I am not the best person to give advice on this since I am a loner and I don't feel I really need friends but if I do make some then I treasure them. I have moved so many times that starting over doesn't bother me anymore so I am sorry that you are getting uprooted. I am an immigrant to America (from Zambia) and that was a life changing event since I knew no one here and came from a different culture/environment and I left behind everything I knew but still it was just another move except it had the biggest affect on me since I was alienated and hated for being Muslim.

The moment you stop worrying about friends and how you are viewed by women, the better off you will be and the easier it will all fall into place.

 

[2fish]

I have to agree, it is high school it is all drama and crap. Having served four years hard time in high school I can tell you it gets better once you get out on parole. As to the girls that say you are not hugable.... I fail to undestand do they want a steriotypical gay friend? If thats what they want then they need to be slapped. If they mean they are not attracted to you then that's fine because there are so many people that it would be hell to be attracted to them all.

Don't let these "friends" bother you. Care not what they think of you, but of what you think of you.

 

[Mrrrgggrlllrrrg]

Improv troupe, high school, facebook, trust issues with "friends", I smell me a troll or a sad sad individual.

Here's a bit of advice from a wise wise, now dead, WWII vet who spent 2 years in a POW camp before being freed by the russians "Stop being a pansy and man up boy."

Shiz happens, you move on. Life isnt all sunshine and daffodils, "friends" will use you, people will disrespect you, midgets will try to assassinate you, it is life be the bigger man and give no notice to pettiness and pathetic individuals. When it doesnt affect you they will have no power over you, simple.

 

[Cowabungaa]

Considering all the stupid drama your high school "friends" are putting up, college sounds like it will be a real eye-opener. Mark my words. This time next year you will be wondering why the fuck you thought high school was worth your mental energy wasted on worrying about it.

Except when, you know, you end up in a college worse than high school.

Which happened to me after being forced to leave the kind of college you're describing. I finally found a home, finally found people like, and in a few months it was all over. The next year (which was last year) I ended up on a college even worse than high school. My first experience with proper jocks. Got me suicidal and all, high school all over again. So much fun...

Hence why I'm in the shitter right now. After leaving that second college (I just couldn't stay there, even though I could've finished that Journalism Bachelor) I started working in the local crappy supermarket, sank into an even deeper social isolation and a worsening depression. I finally hooked up with a psychiatrist about half a year ago, but that hasn't helped fuck all just yet so I'll be getting more intensive therapy, hopefully, in half a month.

College fucked up my life even worse than it already was, I hope it'll be a lot better for you mister OP.

 

[StarStruckStrumpets]

Though more likely I think you're just dealing with prissy little high school girls who need to get fucked and chucked a few times and lose the princess complex.

That...that just...I-
I don't know what to say.
I think I've just had an epiphany.
Thank you!

On Topic: If you're going to college soon, you shouldn't worry about your past. Just leave it all behind. I'm in High-School (Well, Britain's version which is 11-16 years), and I'm in my final year. I have good friends, but I've already come to terms with the fact that after I've left, I probably won't see any of them again, and if I do, they certainly won't matter. You make most of your treasured friends in the workplace anyway, well, that's what I assume given the adults I know.

I understand it is hard to let go, but you shouldn't be too bothered right now. I know people who will cry when our final year is up, but there's no point in that, we're all probably only going to keep up with 2 of our friends. I've had to start over so many times in life, it never gets easier, but each time I've started again, it has always been better. Chin up, things will change.

=)

 

[Vanguard_Ex]

Think of these issues and connections as a cord of elastic tied around your neck: you can cut it yourself and then be free to move on, sure some of it will stick with you and it might be a little sore for a while but you'll heal easily. Or you can try move on and leave this cord to break by itself along the way...which one is going to hurt more?

 

[sky14kemea]

I... almost know how you feel. All my friends are going to University this year, half of them have already left town. I'm the only one left here >_>
(Well out of the ones I see most often anyways.)
Lonelyyyyy~

 

[Liberaliter]

It could be worse, in the grand scheme of things there's nothing wrong so try to improve things for yourself.

 

[EeveeElectro]

I'd say they took the piss out of you to get some laughs, a lot of comedy is about mocking others. If you felt genuine hate behind it, then bollocks to them.
If they want to treat her as a sex object, then she has every tight to leave them and see if they can control themselves.
Starting college is a good place to meet friends, the majority of them have matured and are easy to talk to, so don't worry about it.

Don't listen to what people said about you, that women don't like you. I think your problem is, you let yourself get upset too easily by other people. We need to build your confidence up, we do. If you start thinking negatively, it will show on the outside.

And if they're calling you a bad dictator, that's kind of a compliment...? They're saying you'd make a bad dictator, who would be someone is too nice to boss people around for example.

 

[manic_depressive13]

If you need to wait until the ONE PERSON you can trust goes on facebook, you obviously don't have a very close friendship. Call them, rock up at their house; if you two are genuinely good friends they won't mind.