I actually agree with the guy who told you to piss off. Reading this thread, it seems as though all you want to do is wallow in your own self-pity and have everyone feel sorry for you. Kid, grow up!
If you're unhappy with your life and who you are, that's primarily your fault, and the only person who can actively change the way your life runs is... shockingly enough, you! What I see here is a teenager whose attitude stinks, your get up and go just plain got up and f**ked off. Go get it back.
I'm going to level with you, this was me in high school
- Very few friends, socially awkward, no girlfriends
- Recluse who liked to draw and play video games, practically a freaking hermit
- Regularly bullied (I was chased home from school once while the bullies swung chains they'd broken off their bicycles at me)
- I held a belief that life was all about wallowing in mediocrity as a mere worker ant, plugging your numbers into the national statistics until the inevitability of death arrived
This is me today
- I have a fiancee and daughter, as well as a group of close personal friends
- I have a job that pays the bills
- I genuinely enjoy life
What changed? I went to college, I threw myself into the fray, met new people, tried new things and gained a positive outlook on life. That was a major attitude adjustment, and it came from me, not anyone else. You have to do the same for yourself. If I could go back in time and visit my 14 year old self, I wouldn't give him a hug and tell him "it gets better", I'd kick his arse, tell him to change his perspective on the world and that "it only gets better if you MAKE it better"!
If you're incapable of that, if you really think the best solution is the ultimate "I quit", then clearly your self worth was disgustingly low. Maybe one of your dad's other sperm should have won the race and been given a chance at life.
