That point in life

[Doclector]

I just came to a crushing revelation. I'm going back to college for my last term on Wednesday, and if I get good grades, onto university this September (thanks, british government, for making a gap year impossible!) to study film, from which point I hope to get into the industry. However, this means that I only gave a few months until everything becomes an endless uphill struggle. I will never again have nothing to worry about. I will be living near and with other students, normal people, for three years, I can't hide from them anymore, I will never feel safe again. I'll never again be able to expect some forgiveness for the mistakes i make.

I guess I've made this post partially to vent and also to ask when everyone else's 'tipping point' was? When did life start having to be organised for you, when things got serious? I get the feeling this point is something everyone reaches, a "quarter life crisis" as such.

 

[Not-here-anymore]

Pfft. I've been at uni for pretty much 3 years now, and life has yet to start having to be organised or serious. With the right attitude, it never does.

 

[SamuelT]

Life only gets serious if you let it be.

...is what my dad said. Of course stuff'll get more complicated, and you'll have to take more things into account of course, but I've yet have to experience that moment.

 

[Doclector]

I can't hide from them anymore, I will never feel safe again.

Jesus, what is wrong with you?

I know that university education can be a ***** (trust me, I'm a med student), but facing a difficult challange is something you should be used to by now.

Of course. But I'm moving away from home for the first time to go there. I dont trust normal people. I've seen how vicous they can be towards people who ain't normal. The thought of living with them terrifies me.

 

[Phishfood]

Getting the mortgage made the biggest change to me. Eugh.

 

[NoMansLand 666]

I can't hide from them anymore, I will never feel safe again.

Jesus, what is wrong with you?

I know that university education can be a ***** (trust me, I'm a med student), but facing a difficult challange is something you should be used to by now.

Of course. But I'm moving away from home for the first time to go there. I dont trust normal people. I've seen how vicous they can be towards people who ain't normal. The thought of living with them terrifies me.

I'm fair from normal and I've been at uni living with countless people I don't know for the whole year. I adapted. Most of the general public aren't as much of a bunch of cunts as you seem to be implying. Which uni are you planning on going to anyway? (Some cities tend to be better then others).

 

[Levitas1234]

I don't take things seriously, i just got kicked out of school too, but not worried because the education side of life is really easy and miniscule. The real part of life is sex, drugs, violence, and shit that goes on after dark. It makes school and social life shit seem like nothing.


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I dont trust normal people. I've seen how vicous they can be towards people who ain't normal. The thought of living with them terrifies me.

For someone in Uni, it sure is taking you a long time to realize no one is normal and everyone's as fucked up as the last.

 

[Wadders]

I'm finishing my second year of Uni this month. My final year is fast approaching, and with it comes the pressure of looking for a job, and writing my dissertation, so I'm shitting myself really, but I know I can cope, I've got this far right?

Then will come the prospect of going out in the world and becoming a real person, getting a job, a girlfriend, a place to live.

It's all too scary to comprehend, so I'd guess that the point at which I leave University will be my "tipping point" as you put it.

I'll have to leave my friends from Uni and friends from home behind, and start out completely afresh. I've managed Uni well I think, but that's because it's really just an extension of college, just with more work, and a lot more booze.

I'm not looking forward to leaving, at all.

 

[MarsProbe]

Getting the mortgage made the biggest change to me. Eugh.

That. Since I moved out and got a mortgage a few years back, I haven't been able to have as many nice things. Plus, I actually have to budget, which isn't any fun.

 

[Jedoro]

I've moved out and work full-time while a full-time uni student, and I still haven't hit that point.

 

[tigermilk]

Duplicate thread, thought I would post my ramblings in both:

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I'm currently doing my masters degree in film, good to meet someone else who wants to pursue their passion.

I think once you get to university you may be able to relax a bit. If you get good grades trust me your first year will not be an uphill struggle. The first year (hell all three years) can be a bit of a breeze. Yes if you want to puruse a career in film (theory/academia or practical/production?) then it is worth pushing yourself that bit further. You will probably meet dicks in university but you will also meet like minded people who I am sure share a number of your anxieties.

Most degree schemes don't count the first year towards your final degree, this is your fuck up/fine tuning year and as for everything else, don't drink to excess in freshers week and you will be one of the few not to fuck up.

Of course none of this helps, I felt the same when before I started uni (also in England) and nothing anyone could have said would reassure me.

If you are enthusiastic about your subject (it sounds like you are) you will be popular in seminars and with tutors. If you listen to people they will (on the whole respect you) and remember "don't worry about what other people think of you... they don't".

I also worked with potential students throughout my undergraduate degree (open days where people come to see the university etc). Most of them were very nervous and understandably so (some were better at hiding it than others).

Well I best be getting on I have 5000 words to write on Taxi Driver (Scorsese 1977) before 4pm Tuesday.