I ended up with a 21, which is just because thoughts like that don't really leave you all the time, especially if you're under stress. In iteself, the test doesn't really say much, but it's to be used in conjunction with sessions with a professional, certainly not self-diagnosis. I did take one of these when I was actually suffering from a fairly severe depression. I can't remember what the exact score was but it was over 70. I knew something was wrong then though (hard not to, to be honest) and was already having therapy. My experience? It sucked. A lot. Strangely though, in the same way that at the time it often feels empty, more unbearably nothing than actually bad, when you look back on it, you know it did feel bad and nearly unbearable (only word I can think that adequately describes it), but it just doesn't feel intensely bad, it merely feels like...time, when you existed. One of the hard things for me (don't know if it would apply to you) was that I self harmed quite a lot. Which is horrible in itself and the feelings associated with it, but self harm now has a very...indulgent connotation. You know what I mean, the idea of the emo kid doing it to be cool. I think it's just an easier image than the truer image of an individual going through a very difficult time. It's just uncomfortable to see in someone in reality. But it meant I always felt like I had to hide it at all costs. Which is natural anyway with them for many, but the extra sense of embarrassment makes it even worse. And the fact that time becomes unreally long.