You know, for far too long now I've been thinking to myself "Do I not talk to people or try to go out and do anything I feel SLIGHTLY indimidated by others here or there, or do in general I just not care."
Then I came upon a discovery. It was the later of the two. I choose whom I like and wish to associate with. Believe me, this is a long and lonely road in some regards, but overall I can't get past anything other than what others declare "are truly in depth".
Now am I nuts within the fact that I HATE the quote enquote "good time" thing over greater discussions? I mean seriously, I have no gray area as a person, no "down to earth" quality of bullshit. It's not that I am in incapable of performing this feat, I just feel as if other human beings have a vague understanding of everything around them as people.
Where am I going with this? I honestly have no earthly clue. Let me put it into perspective for you all folks. I live in here in a huge college town in America, and despite being surrounded with infinite possibilities to migle with people it feels as if there truly is no one for me to basically communicate with
The only music I enjoy are metal, classical music, and old blues. Not a shred of me goes into the modern day "happy tunes" most others choose to get into. The point with that I just made is that I want to get to know a crowd of the sorts without alienating who I am all in all. I hate to jump into the psuedo-intellectual vibe of "damnit I'm different" but I sincerely and respectfully say I am.
And here yet again, I reach out to the internet....
I don't fucking know. I'm lost at this point.
If anybody feels free to comment go for it. I'm interested in having to hear what others have to say on this topic.
Then I came upon a discovery. It was the later of the two. I choose whom I like and wish to associate with. Believe me, this is a long and lonely road in some regards, but overall I can't get past anything other than what others declare "are truly in depth".
Now am I nuts within the fact that I HATE the quote enquote "good time" thing over greater discussions? I mean seriously, I have no gray area as a person, no "down to earth" quality of bullshit. It's not that I am in incapable of performing this feat, I just feel as if other human beings have a vague understanding of everything around them as people.
Where am I going with this? I honestly have no earthly clue. Let me put it into perspective for you all folks. I live in here in a huge college town in America, and despite being surrounded with infinite possibilities to migle with people it feels as if there truly is no one for me to basically communicate with
The only music I enjoy are metal, classical music, and old blues. Not a shred of me goes into the modern day "happy tunes" most others choose to get into. The point with that I just made is that I want to get to know a crowd of the sorts without alienating who I am all in all. I hate to jump into the psuedo-intellectual vibe of "damnit I'm different" but I sincerely and respectfully say I am.
And here yet again, I reach out to the internet....
I don't fucking know. I'm lost at this point.
If anybody feels free to comment go for it. I'm interested in having to hear what others have to say on this topic.