A lot really, but one most recently and painfully; do not give away your hard work to people, it feels like a good thing at the time but in the end, they take it from you and just ignore you. Either keeping the work or throwing it away, even if you believe them to be your best friend.
I have hardly anything to show for the days and weeks put into these many pieces. I need to be professional with what I create, not noble. Or else it will tear me apart.
Add in the ever universal love-lost mistakes that reverberate through life too. I do not know how to cope with own emotions with low self-esteem, it generally does not make for good boyfriend material understandably.